When your heart keeps shattering because you realize you love someone but only after breaking up and they love someone else. But that someone else keeps breaking their heart and they tell you about it, and them being hurt just hurts you even more but you want to help them with that relationship so they are happy. But all the time thinking how much you would do for them if you were still together. But at the same time at your core you're just as emotionless as you have been for several years now. It hurts.
