The irresistible Fire

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I have been asking the doctor to find us a surrogate mother,as i feel like i have failed you as your woman.I feel pathetic derick and angry at myself.I sobbed hystircally while I cursed.Derick sat there ,starring at me with his dark blue eyes ,I could see the disappointment in his eyes as well as sympathy.woman can you not once in your life trust in my love for you?have you lost all sense of how much i love you?I do not want another woman growing my baby inside,i want you to feel the joys of our baby growing inside ,to feel his thud while i caress your belly.I know i sound crazy but I want to hold your hand while you giving birth cursing at me for making you pregnant.Derick hurled squeezing my hand. It was evening,I lay in our crimson bed,starring at the roof which was displaying artificial stars and moonlight, you would even lose a sense of reality that you are in a room as it was perfectly done.I lied for the third time to Derick for my own selfish reasons. I did know that sooner or later I would start showing and the scan would detect the months.As confused as I was i took some woman magazine,and as I browsed through,a headline caught my attention.It was written ABORTION FOR UNWANTED PREGNANCY.