Forbidden thoughts. That's what you cause me. Thoughts I shouldn't be having. I shouldn't be thinking about your smile, or your laugh, or your hands enclosed in mine. I really shouldn't be thinking about your eyes, or your lips, or your hair. I definitely shouldn't be thinking about how much I miss you, how much I want you back. My friends always tell me I need to "move on" or "distance myself". Do they know how fucking hard that is? To force yourself to stop being in love with someone? It's tearing me apart. My mom always asks me why I'm so tired after school. It's because I have to walk around school with you, pretending not to love you. Everyone criticizing me for caring about you. Taking away any form of communication I have with you. Making this way harder for me than it already is. I love you, but I'm not supposed to. I'm not allowed to. It's forbidden.
