Misleading

1. March 22

5:03am

I'm not too sure why I always end up in this situation. This situation of confusion, of regret. I shouldn't give myself away to people so easily like that.

And here I am in Mcdonald's again. It's like my thinking spot. I was sleeping peacefully until I dreamt of what I did last week. Which woke me up and brought me back to my favourite building of thought.

I met him last week on a Thursday and haven't talked to him since.

*past*
We met on a street. Seems kind of sketchy, yes, but something just made us stop and drown in each other's eyes. It was night time. There wasn't much around me but a pond, where the moon's light was glowing against its waters, an intersection of roads with a few cars that passed by every once in a while and a cute coffee shop down the road.

I was sitting on a bench close to the pond and near the road. I was out with my friends Deliah and Rosette for dinner and  felt like going to the pond to have some time to myself, once they went home.

It was somewhat risky since I'm a 20 year old girl out alone at 12:30am, dressed semi casual nice, with not much around. But the way the area was setup with the leaves on the trees waving, the water, the coffee shop. I felt comforted. It was peaceful. I could think. Yea, I guess I'm a big thinker, since I like quietness to process my thoughts. The pond wasn't far from downtown anyway.

I wasn't even thinking much. It was just relaxing.

An hour or so had passed by and I was just listening to music, relaxing, when I noticed a car stop at the intersection. I wondered why since there was no stop sign. Maybe he was being smart to stop and make sure it was clear to keep driving. I wasn't sure. That was when we looked at each other and locked gazes. His eyes were glowing.

He got out of the car and I came back to my senses. He sat next to me on the bench.
"What are you doing out here alone?"
I didn't reply because I had no idea who he was.
"Cool place? Yea that's why isn't it?"
"Uhhh... well.."
I refused to look at him because I knew I would be caught up in his eyes again.
"Yea, I was just waiting for someone," I lied.
"So you were waiting for me?"

First of all, who does this guy think he is. Why would I be waiting for him. I don't know who he is and for anything he doesn't matter to me. I didn't respond.
"Hey," he touched my thigh.
"What are you doing?!" I scolded.

After he did that, I had no choice but to look at him and right when I did, I felt a jolt of electricity run through me. It felt so good. I liked it but I still didn't know who he was. I lay my hand on top of his, letting him know I wanted him to keep his hand on my thigh.

"What's your name?" I rushed. I didn't know what I was doing. I would never talk to some random guy like this.
"Kayal."
"And I'm Jera."

We stared at each other's eyes. His eyes were amazing. Whenever I looked at him all my focus was on him. Nothing else. No one else. Something made me want to kiss him. I was confused. I didn't exactly know why I wanted to.
"Jera," he smiled while my name lingered off his tongue.
The way he said it was so sexy.
"That's cute," he said.

I couldn't take it. I threw one leg over top and around his legs and was sitting on top of him as my lips started brushing his. He caressed the back of my head, intensifying our kiss. He was using his tongue all over my mouth so I decided to follow. That means we both wanted it. Or... were we just so focused we didn't know what we were even doing?

Either way it felt good. It was a guilty pleasure and I wanted more but I stopped myself. I looked at him and said "Your eyes are beautiful." I got up, went behind the bench, hugged him from the back, walked towards the front of the bench, gave him a kiss and left him with a touch from his neck down to his crotch with my hand.