This wasn't supposed to happen

Chapter Four

     He crawled closer, and he was really starting to freak me out. I was sitting with my knees pulled slightly up to my chest, he crawled up to me spred my legs and crawled inbetween them he pushed me down on my back lightly. He stayed sitting up and started unbottoning his shirt. I gazed at his toned chest and stomach, he was even more amazing unde- WHAT AM I SAYING?!?!?!? WHERE DID AMAZING COME FROM?!?!?! Ok i just need to close my eyes and breathe slow breaths.

"open your eyes," he wispered in my ear. When did he get so close, when i finally got up the guts to open my eyes. I froze, his face was huvering just a few millimetres from my face.I gasped dispite myself, I did and i hated the smirk that formed on his lips when i did, "you like what you see." uhg i hate that I'm kind of enjoying thi- wait no i take that back i cant enjoy this, its so wrong!

"can we just do this."

"isnt some one egear!" i tried to protest but i coulnt get the words out before his plump soft lips were on mine, his kiss was gentle but egear. I could tell he wanted this, just didn't know why... After a while of just kissing, i felt his hand on the button of my jeans he fiddled with it for a while, i got impatient. i reached down and undid them myself. I felt his deep chuckle, rumbled against me. He attempted to pul off my jeggins but failed, i sat up and did the usual wiggle that i had to do to get out of them, it looks funny when i do it but it works. he stared at me, and waited for me to finish, when i had finally gotten them off he grabbed at my shirt and pulled it off. i hated the feeling of being so exposed, i pulled my knees up and hugged them to my chest. when i looked at him i saw, a handsom sexy man. when i looked down at my own body i saw ugly, just plain ugly. i squirmed away from him and turned my back to him. "Don't turn your back on me." he said softly, "please look at me." he pleaded.

"I can't."

"why not?"

"Cause, when i look at you i feel so inadaquit..."

"Don't." he stated simply.

"What?" i was so confused.

"Don't feel inadaquit." I turned around and looked at him, "you are beautiful, dont hide from me." he crawled over to where i had squirmed away, i tried to scoot away but my back was against the wall of the van. He pulled me on to him so i was straddling him. his bare chest was so soft yet solid, his arms were strong and comfertable. I sighed and relaxed into his arms.

"Ok I'm ready to start again now."

"Are you sure?"

"Ya." I smiled slighty. He smiled too, he leaned into my neck and started laying sweet soft little kisses all over my neck. I moaned loudly, this was something i had never felt before and i felt amazing! He moved up towards my jaw still kissing lightly, he worked his way up and finally found his target, he bit down slightly on my ear. I let out a gasp, he took this as an opening and lock his lips on mine slipping his tounge in my mouth, his tounge explored every little crevace in my mouth. God why did this make me feel like moaning over and over and over again. So I did, I moaned repeatedly, and in return so did he, the rumbled that happened when he did made my stomach do flips! Soon he pulled his mouth from mine and kissed down mr neck to my chest all the way down to my breasts, at this time he reached behind me and unhooked my bra he slid it down my arms and resumed kissing my breasts. He then started to suck on my nipple making them harden with pure pleasure, i moaned again. I could feel him smiling. When he moved on to the other nipple he also moved his hand into my underwear, once he found my soft wet clit he started to rub it softly. I gasped at the sudden sensation.

"Do you like that?" he mumbled. The words just wouldnt come, so I just nodded. "Then you'll like this even more..." Before i could react,he shoved a finger in side of me, i gasped loudly at the intrution. Slowly he slipped in another and another, soon there was four of his large fingers inside me. Then he ripped them out and pulled down his jeans and boxers, next thing i knew i was staring at his member, his very large member at that. I quickly pulled down my panties, and straddled him hovering over him. for a while i just sat there, he groaned, "come on i cant handle this." he angerly gripped my hips and shoved me down on him. I screamed out in pain. He roughly moved himself in and out of me. Each time just hurt more, I wimpered. He stopped pumping and just sat there for a while with him still inside me. Tears streamed down my face. "Shit, I'm sorry, I forgot you said to be gentle."

Quickly I pulled off him and scurried to the corner, I could barely close my legs it hurt so much. I had never felt that much pain during sex. 

"Please don't be mad at me, I forgot I'm sorry..."