Midnight sun (Continued)

13. Balancing (Part One)

Part one of chapter 13!!! It took awhile but I got it uploaded... it's such a long chapter I decided to cut it into two different parts! I stopped right before Edward goes hunting but tust me there's still probably 2 or 3 pages in there haha  (: so I hope people are viewing this and like it. Remember to vote and dont forget to comment if you would like me to continue this one and possibly do New Moon from Edwards point of view! Kisses! XOXO

                                     13. Balancing 

    I drove down the street away from Bella’s house, and in the opposite direction from my own. The last thing I wanted was to be home and attacked by Esme with questions about Bella. She wanted to know everything about her, although I didn’t even know half the things about Bella myself.

    I traveled down the familiar dirt road toward the meadow, where I often went to think. The place where I would be bringing Bella. I parked the Volvo at the end of the road and got out. It took me only minutes to find the meadow.

    It was beautiful even in the pale moonlight. The flowers took on a blue cast and the grass seemed to be alive. Bella would surely love it here. It could be our place. I shook the thought out of my head and sat down in the middle of the small circle.

    I was foolish to think Bella and I would have a place together. She would eventually see what a monster I am and decide she wants nothing to do with me. The selfish side of me wanted to never let the thought appear in my mind again, but the other part, the part that cared for her safety told me to leave her now and save her from what could happen.

    I sighed. Why couldn’t Bella just be like every other human I’ve ever met? Why couldn’t she just shy away from me? Why couldn’t she hate me for the monster I am? Why did she have to appeal to me so much?

    I laid down in the cool grass and pictured Bella in my mind. Her mahogany hair framing her dominate cheekbones. The contrast of her chocolate brown eyes and her milky skin complexion. I pictured the way her shaped eyebrows pulled together when she concentrated. How her cheeks burned pink at the things I could never understand because I couldn’t read her thoughts.

    I don’t know how long I sat there, thinking about the most amazing creature in the world. Minutes, perhaps hours. I was finally pulled out of my trance when I heard my cell phone ring in my pocket. I glanced at the number. Alice.

    “Hello?” I answered. My voice sounded happy even to me. The effect of thinking about Bella for a long period of time.

    “Edward?” Alice chirped in my ear. “Why aren’t you home yet? Esme thinks you’ve run off again, even though I’ve told her a hundred times I would have seen it if you had. I finally broke down and called so she would stop worrying.”

    “I’ll be home shortly. Tell Esme not to worry.” I hung up the phone.

    I reluctantly got to my feet and ran back to my car. I was surprised to see it was nearly two in the morning. I could stop by Bella’s on my way home. She would be asleep. Then I could go home and make sure Esme wasn’t too anxious.

    I drove down the too familiar street to Bella’s house. I parked a block away and ran the rest so no one would notice my car. I jumped up to her second story window and silently lifted open her window.

    Bella was lying in her bed, the sheets and blanket tangled up in her legs. Her eyebrows were scrunched up and she looked troubled. I wanted to know what was wrong. Was she having a nightmare? Was she stressed about something? I was, as I usually am, frustrated because I would never know.