Feelings Expressed

September 3, 2016

I feel guilty. I want to say sorry to everyone I talk to, but that'd be weird. This feeling has been going on for a while, like I'm always making the wrong choices and everyone around me pays for it.

I can't express to anyone how I feel because no one understands the feeling of being guilty all the time without doing something horrendous. The feeling of letting your loved ones down without them even knowing that they were, then when they find out, they are let down because of how you feel. How I feel.

I've perfected the art of questioning myself, crying in secrecy, and lying straight through my honeyed words. My true emotions lead my words to become fatal venom to which I want to strike everyone around me down, but do I really want to do that? Or do I want to be rid of me, for everyone else's sake?