was it just a fall?

his side of the story (pt. 2)

Haydens pov.

I was excited that me and mingi we're dating. But, jen wasnt taking our break up so well.
(Jen and haydens messages)
Jen- why.. Did i do something am.. Am i boring i can change i swear.
Hayden- n-no jen. I just.. I dont know your really nice and. I dont deserve someone like you. You can do better.
Jen- no you dick i love you. I want you.

Jen was really sweet and i did like her for a while but, the i met mingi and i changed. I didnt want to be in the relationship were we sent hi and, wryd and emojis were annoying to me. So i never really sent the "I love you😍❤" text I just simply put I love you.

But, not with mingi. My whole person and spirit changed. I feel that I'm a happy person now that we're together. And Andrew treated her so wrong. And she's been in terrible relationships and, I want that to change. She obviously doesn't feel loved. Not even from her family. And, it.. It kills me.

That night I didn't sleep. I stayed up trying to think about what me and mingi we're gonna do when school started back. She wrote on Facebook how she was going to the state fair with her and her friends. And I wanted to see her so I tried to ask but the response was always 'no' I have a car or I had a car.. Long story short I wrecked it.

She is so fragile
She's had bad history
And I wanted to change that. Make her feel that she's not alone. And that someone cares about her.
She's had problems with cutting herself. And, she still does. And I wish I could get her too stop but it's obviously a habit and daily thing for her. She's been to hospitals to get helped but, came out every time continuing to do it. Her parents could care less. She gets sick really easily so she goes to the hospital every month to get check ups. Her favorite color is black and purple and, her favorite food is ramen. I knew pretty much everything about her. More than I knew about Jen.
And Jen knew this. She'd get pissed at mingi about it even though mingi didn't do anything. Jen was over all a jealous type. Not even jealous just genuinely gets mad when I wave at a girl. NOT EVEN THAT just making eye contact.

Mingis pov
(MAY BE TRIGGERED!)

I was searching for my converse box. I kept a lot of my blades in there and if I didn't cut today it'd kill me.
My phone was blowing up. I didn't pay much attention until it said "message from Hayden"
I read through it. "Are you cutting again, if you are please stop. I love you mingi" I blushed. He never said he loved me except when he was dating Jen and we'd say I love you sis or I love you brother. He meant this one in the actual love situation.
I texted back saying that I wasn't cutting but, I knew if I found it that'd I would actually cut myself. I promised him all the time that I wouldn't cut myself anymore. But, when we got to school he would check my arms and find multiple cuts. Cuts on cuts. Which looked really bad.

I got judged a lot. No one really understood though. But, i honestly didnt care. I really hate most of the girls. And the girls that were my friends. Usually left... So I was friends with most guys then anything. And got called a whore a lot. But, the girls who did say those things were whores themselves.

I finally found my box. I stood up and locked my door and started cutting my upper arm. I watched as blood bubbles began forming. I started feeling bad because I promised Hayden I wouldn't do it.. I wanted to disappear because, I knew that If I did it he'd get really pissed and get mad. And I'd feel bad and cut more and more. Because that's what Andrew did. I stopped and put it back in my converse box.
My phone went off
It was Hayden
"Hello?" I said
"Hey mingi! I was really wanting to talk to you. So... Yeah." He said being really adorable.
"Oh yeah hang on I just gotta put something away." I said. He was silent almost of he knew and saw what I was doing which was closing my converse box and putting it into my closet. "Have you cut any..? " he said clearing his throat.
"Umm, no not since last week when me and Andrew fought."..
My phone died. And I felt bad because he was in the middle of saying something. When it charged up he was already in bed so I texted him telling him that I loved him and hope he has a good night. I haven't ate for a week so I started getting hungry. I got up and went to my pantry and got cup noodles. I grabbed some chop sticks and put the noodles in the microwave.
Trying not to wake anybody up. I went to my room with my cup noodles and put leafyishere on my phone. I stayed up mainly because I thought of hayden and me watching leafy. My phone started buzzing. It was a notification that tomorrow I go to the doctors.. I sighed I soon fell asleep watching leafy.

Thanks guys Ill try and update a lot more but, I hope you enjoyed this one!