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Feelings A/N

I remember last year, on the last day of school. This person took me to a beautiful place in the school I go to and confessed their feelings to me. I blushed, like how I've blushed when 2 other people confessed to me. But, this person could be both genders. The person who first confessed to me was a boy, 2 years older then me at that time. The second person was a girl, same age but was a tomboy. She also liked 2 other guys but she confessed to me 3 weeks before the last day of school. The third, was the person that took me to that place. The problem is that at that time, I have heard 3 confessions that I blushed for the third time and didn't respond. I just told her to wait because this person was different. At times, he/she could be brutal and harming but, at times, caring and overprotective.

But this year, this person asked me if I thought it out. I told this person that I needed more time to think because I never knew what love felt like and I was confused. But, what I said was true, I never loved someone so dearly that I would confess to that person. And because of this, I was confused. I asked people what love was and felt like because some of my friends have dated before. Some say it's a drug that sometimes makes your life a miracle or a relationship that was never going to last. I thought this through and remembered that my mother's heart was broken by my dad 2 times, and I think I'm afraid to love someone because I might end up like her or other people. But, maybe that's the reason why I never loved someone and was afraid what would happen if I did. But now, I don't know what to do and I'm afraid of hurting others people's feelings by rejecting them. I need help and I ask a simple question.

What is love and how does it feel to love someone so dearly?

I know I might sound like a useless person begging for help but I'm confused, worried, scared, and I don't know if I ever loved someone before.

And don't worry, I'm drawing something but it's a surprise, I'm not done yet because drawing that thing I'd hard with the scenery so, I'm sorry if I never updated but, bye.

To answer my question, (if you want to) you could comment (where I respond) or in the private conversations (where I can't respond and I don't know why😢)

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