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How it all started

As I'm sure you can predict , the days following that Friday, I didn't stop talking to Liam and he didn't stop talking to me either . Every night we'd fall asleep while talking to each other and yes I was talking to Finn at the same time. My conversations with Finn were not comparable to mine and Liam's .Finn and I , we were talking about random stuff . Stuff that'd get out of his mouth and that he'd think was good subjects for a conversation. Finn was silly and funny, he was just so friendly and caring at the same time. He wouldn't hurt my feelings by saying a joke a little bit too harsh about me . That's where it went all wrong , maybe him being so caring was a sign that I should've made it clear from the first conversation that I was only looking for friendship with him nothing more or nothing less . I needed him to be just a friend. On the hand , Liam was not Finn at all , our conversations were a lot deeper and he didn't really care about hurting people's feeling he even told me once that "we hurt the ones we love the most " and finished by explaining to me that the jokes he'd make was only for the purpose of joking but they'd be a little harsh because from now on we were past the whole acquaintances relationship , he told me we were friends , real friends . And that real friends weren't scared of making harsh jokes about one another . Don't get me wrong it's not that I'm being stupid or anything but my weird friendship with Liam felt way more real than the one with Finn. All that happened within a week , I needed them both in my life. Each boy brought something positive out of me and I was actually really looking forward for Friday so that I'd get to see them and also the girls. Even with a shitty week at school I was happy , very happy to be honest and it was because of the people that I've met at the cadets so far.

Friday came so fast and I was really excited. I kept looking at the clock the whole night not even paying attention to what any of my teachers were saying that day. I wanted to see them , everyone included Liam , Finn , Dakota , Allia , Kale and the ones that I didn't know the names. Going from dancing and singing to being a cadet was more fun that I thought it was going to be. I met some amazing people Which helped me from mopping around about not seeing my high school friends.

"You're not listening are you Serena ? It's exam's stuff ! Don't you want to actually pass this boring literature class and not having to take it again next semester ? " Leona asked with a worried look on her face.
"Of course I do! It's just that I am so excited for later that i can't concentrate ..." I replied.
"We'll get it together ! Even Voldemort is doing better at following what the teacher's saying than you. " she said trying to look serious but we all know as soon as we hear the name Voldemort we can't be serious. We bursted into laughter as the teacher gave us a death glare and warned us to stay quit or else she'll kick us out. My literature class was a 2 hours class and only 25 minutes have passed , it was going to be a long one hour and a half but I had to take notes and actually pay attention to what she was saying and put asides the cadets for that time being.
Before I knew it it was already 4:15 in the afternoon. The teacher actually let us leave because she thought she gave us enough "stuff " for the day. As usual , I stayed with Leona and the others for about 45 minutes. We talked about school , about Voldemort, about that guy that she had a crush on . How can I Forget the fact that they were making fun of me because I was now on a cadet. Past this point I didn't really care because I was doing it because I wanted to , yes I did still feel hurt about the fact that my brother had ditch me when I was only doing it for him. Soon enough we had to part ways and say goodbye for the weekend. I then started running to the subway because I was about to miss it which means that I was going to be late for the cadets. Obviously it's something that I didn't want happening. Sure I love getting the attention but not that kind of attention. That kind a little bit scary you know having 100 pair of eyes looking at you . Well for someone who's not usually lucky today was definitely a good day because I soon as I get out of the elevator the metro came. I had about 30 seconds to get in which I was gladly thankful for. My whole routine was consisted of me reading , studying and listening to music. It was nothing new to me travelling in a metro, I was used to that.
After 30 minutes in the metro I got out , ran all the way upstairs where the bus was about to leave and got in just in time. I slept through the whole hour , usually it'd be a good 30 to 45 min drive but since it was rush hour and there was a lot of traffic in Montreal it soon became a 1 hour to 1 hour and a half drive. That's why I was usually late. But not too late because the cadets started at 6:30 pm at least that's what they say to me the first day I went there but everyone confirmed me that they wouldn't start before seven pm and I was going to be there before seven.
Soon enough it was my time to get off the bus, I quickly press the button that automatically rang through the whole bus meaning  that someone was to get off at the next stop. I got up my seat and ran to the bus door almost falling down and hurt my face. The bus stopped and  I mouthed a thank you to the driver and enter the school ground where they held the cadets activities. From the parking lot I could see the huge line of cadets like me waiting after a senior to take their names and get inside of the gym. I took that opportunity to text the girls and ask them where they were because I was already there. Dakota was already inside and Allia , well she was late as in she was still home. It took about five to ten minutes for me the check in before being shoved inside of the gym because of the time. I glanced around the place to try and find a known face that I could go and talk to but Dakota beat to it by coming and say hi to me. I jumped a little not knowing she was behind me.
"Hi!" She said smiling.
"Hey! How are you? " I asked her retuning her smile.
"I'm good! And you?"
"Fine , thanks but I don't think he's fine  though." I pointed to the cadet that I was introduced to as the highest ranked cadet while waiting to Check in earlier. He was talking to a few people slightly raising his voice but we obviously couldn't hear anything.
"Oh that's because we're late , like really behind the schedule for today and he wants every staff to help one another so that we can start soon." Kale added coming out of nowhere.
"Oh now I get it !" Dakota said looking at the front screen of her phone which was showing that it was already seven o'five and shoved it in her jeans back pocket . Finn was a part of the group that was asked to work together and so was Annabel. But Liam on the other hand  was nowhere to be seen , I guess bad boy had this bad habit of always being late. I took out my phone and sent a quick text to him.
"Hey Liam ! How's it going ?  Are you coming? We haven't started yet but you're needed here I think ..."
As I was about to put my phone away when I received his answer.
" Hey Serena , I take it that Delson is fuming right now ? I'll eat something quick while waiting for my dad to come back from work  and I'll head straight here. "
"Oh okay see you soon ;)! " I quickly responded.
"Later Serena xoxo. " Oh he was so cute God!
"SQADRON!" Delson yelled and everybody just like the last time stopped moving and faced him.
"So as all of you can see we're behind schedule , form up needs to be done right away so we can start , thank you ! Staff proceed !" He commanded and everybody around us started moving to go form up their respective section. We followed Kale to our section and got placed by our flight sergeant. Right away we could see Allia entering the gym. She fast walked and got placed in the middle of Dakota and I where there was a space to fill. She greeted us and apologized  for being late , because she didn't really have any excuses for being that late because her and Dakota went to the same school and Dak was able to arrive early even when their school finished at five. Kale motioned for us to shut it because Delson was talking to us and that it was important for us to listen to what he had to say. We shrugged and turned out heads giving Delson our full attention.
"That was a quick form up so good job guys! I'm gonna proceed by saying where each levels going to be tonight. Level one, stays in the gym. Level two , mirror's room. Level three , painting room both of them upstairs. Level four, changing room and finally level five you know what to do. Is there any questions?" He asked  and no one said anything , I'm sure someone wanted to add a comment but because of his voice marking authority everyone shut their mouths. Lips sealed!
"Okay then , have a great night and staff proceed!" Delson said. From the corner of my eyes I see Liam coming inside of the changing room to drop his school bag, he quickly waves hello at me and turned away to go to his section.
What happened later I saw Liam was a total blur . Because If I'm being honest with myself I didn't even pay attention to whatever the girls were saying and the others too for that matter. I'm a hundred per cent sure that I was included in their conversation but I was just so focused on him to notice or hear anyone around me. The way he flinched when an officer approached him to talk to him by asking him to go in the corner of the gym. I was basically  memorizing every details of him , the way his jaw clenched when the officer said something that was clearly enough to pissed him off. The way he took a huge breath not to bicker back , the way his muscles tensed when a cadet pushed him to go join the others because he was late. The way he finally managed to smile at the end of what seemed to be a pretty annoying conversation. I was in that weird phase when you just can't take your eyes off of the guy you're crushing on. As he walked over to his section he took a quick look where I stood and my attempt to look away had failed miserably so I just smile back and he grinned at me as if he was saying I know you were looking at me. He motioned for me to turn my head back to my flight sergent who had just ordered us to go to our respective classes. If I do recall it , I'm level four so I'm guess isn't it's the changing room in between the gym and the mirrors room. I said bye to the girls and gave them a quick hug because we can't give each other hugs at the cadets it's one of these rules you don't have a choice but to respect. Kale was level four and so was I , at least I knew someone from the group. That will sure as hell make me look less awkward. Like I've said before , I knew my way through that school so finding the changing room wasn't going to be that big of a deal.

As soon as I got inside of the changing room, thirteen pair of eyes were fixated on me. That's exactly what I wanted to prevent from happening but somehow I had still managed to be late when there was only one door separating the gym from the changing room. I awkwardly waved hi to everyone and took a sit next to Kyle who obviously didn't care at all at what was happening because he gaze quickly went to the girl sitting next to her. She smiled at me probably feeling the awkwardness or was just thinking what was I doing here . My curiosity took the best of me and I glanced at the name tag that she was wearing on her uniform to see that her last name was Carter. I shifted uncomfortably as they began talking about something  i obviously had no clue to what it all was about but the seemed really into their conversation. As I was about to take out my samsung , a lady wearing a uniform different from what the cadets were all wearing entered the changing room followed by a young girl that looked seriously about my age. She was dressed causally, he hair wasn't in a bun like the other lady . She really looked different.
" Hello, level 4 . This week we have a new member that joined in recently and because her age got placed with us. Cadet Allen a big welcome to you , i hope you'll like it here." I smiled shyly.
"I'm lieutenant Saunders and this is the civil instructor Amelia Trent . We're the level four officers. If there's anything don't be shy to come and talk to us. If it's not too much to ask , would you please stand up and present yourself to the others . After all they are going to be your buddies for the whole year and maybe even after." She continued. I wanted to dig a hole and hide myself in it , because I hated being the new kid and presenting myself was one of the many reasons why. As much as I wanted to go hide , by the look on lieutenant Saunders I knew I didn't have a choice but to obey.
"Hi , I'm Serena Maheeva Allen, I'm a college student student, I just turned seventeen." I said rapidly. As soon as I closed my mouth I stayed hearing them whispering. I didn't know what it was all about at first but then I heard Carter saying to Kyle "What the hell am I supposed to call her? Serena? Maheeva? Allen? " she clearly looked lost. But as usual I was so shy to say anything so I once again just smiled at everyone who seemed as if the earth itself was a turning  inside of their brains.
" Thank you very much for that cadet Allen. I'll be back later on tonight to talk about the survival trip that will be taken in two weeks. As for now I'll let you designated senior cadet instructor to give you your aviation lesson. She gave us one last look before walking away once again with Miss Trent following her. Everybody started taking
, and I was once again left to my own thoughts until I looked at the doorway and recognized the face of the senior cadet instructor that was about to give us our lesson and by the look on his face i quickly understood that there's was a big difference between him talking to me on Facebook and him being the instructor about to give me aviation lessons.