My Abusive Boyfriend

Chapter 8.

Reneseme giggled , "i love you , you little fool ." she grabbed Jakes face and kissed him over and over. I love you too sweetheart. But i have something to tell you . he said smiling . Okay tell me my love . i just think you should know that you are ----

RENESEME WAKE YOUR ASS UP YOUR GONNA MISS THE BUS Renesemes mom yells.
I rolled off the bed and fell face down and whispered to myself "fuck another jake dream " i slowly got up looked at the time and rushed up to the bathroom and took a quick shower , brushed my teeth brushed my hair and sprayed myself with my Victoria Secret Perfume then put on my blue ripped jeans and a pink and white crop top that says "Fries Before Guys" and my Valentines day pink jordans and rushed put the house. I almost missed the bus if it wasnt for that one girl who sits up front the bus wouldve left without me . i hopped on smiled and her and thanked her .
The whole ride on the bus was so depressing all i did was listen to music amd thought if Jake never moved i would have been talking about my night and laughing about some goofy thing he does , i really miss him i mean i let him inside of me like LITERALLY . When we arrived to school i spotted Derrick in the bus loop , he drives to school but wont come get me . Some boyfriend huh. I hopped off the bus walked up to him and hugged him and he said " how are you my princess?" i shrugged my shoulders and said "fine i guess , can we go sit in the cafeteria or something ?" He looked deep in my eyes then looked around as if he was looking to see if anybody was watching him and he finally replied saying " No we're gonna sit in the courtyard"  and i thought to myself "yeah i bet because Sara and her groupie sits in there" I rolled my eyes and said "whatever ok" and made my way to the courtyard in the middle of walking Derrick had a tight grip on my arm and dragged me to "the box" which is this small area the students made up to where nobody goes to anymore . and he pushed me against to the wall with his hand firmly around my throat choking me and hes saying "Listen here , dont you EVER EVER get a attitude with me , you don't know half of the things i can do to you , you little cunt ." I stood there trying to remove his hands from my throat because i had no air whatsoever and he finally let go and i slapped him so hard he started to loose balance . He looked at me and clenched his jaw , balled his hands into fist and repeatedly punched me in the stomach . Tears started to roll down my cheeks and i yelled "SOMEBODY HELP ME " and he covered my mouth and whispered in my ear "stand up like nothing happened put a damn smile on your face" He wiped my tears grabbed my hand and held it and we walked from the box to the courtyard and sat on the bench that had a umbrella , and i was holding my stomach everybody asked what was wrong and i kept telling them i had a stomachache when really everytime i took a breath in , it hurt . Everytime i walk , it hurts. How can this be love ? how can i be inlove with somebody so cruel.. Everytime i look at him its hard to say goodbye because he has times when hes good i just make him the way he is , Maybe if i act more like Sara he'll love me and never want to hurt me anymore and we'll be a happy couple again like before . I sat up straight even though it was really painful and started to passionately kiss Derrick his lips , cheek , neck till he gave me a look which meant wait till we are alone to start up . The bell rang and i kissed Derrick goodbye because our first class is across the campus so hed be late if he walked me . When i got to class i stared at Jakes old seat and slighty smiled thinking about how his face glows up when he realizes im in school and how he greets me with a "hey beautiful or hey alligator or hey freckleface" i sighed and walked to my seat and began on my Do Now . As i was working i overheard a girl speaking about Jake behind me with her friend and i turned around and said "what about him?" they giggled and stood up and yelled "What the fuck is funny you dont even know Jake you were never his friend now that hes in canada you think its okay to mention him? " the teacher snapped her fingers at and pointed at the door . I gathered my things and stuck the bird up to the girls and busted out the door and ran to the girls bathroom crying my eyes out calling jakes phone leaving voice messages saying "hey crocodile..  its me your alligator just wanted you to know that i miss you alot" and id end up breaking down at the end knowing hed probably never hear them . Even when i text his phone it wont go through . This feels like the worst breakup ever i wish he didn't move , i wish it was him who i was inlove with .. well i am in love with him he just doesnt know that hes the one i want but i know if i were to go to him Derrick would hurt him . i just want everybody to be happy but im the one ending up hurt .