This is it. Today is the day I'm going to tell Johnny that I like him. I walk into work ready to see him and say what's been eating at my mind for six months. But when I get there he's no where to be found. I remember him mentioning that he was going to quit soon.
"Hey Maxine! Do you know if Johnny quit already?" I ask one of my other managers.
"Hey Brittany! Yeah his last day was Thursday! Did you not get to say goodbye to him?" she inquired in her silky southern accent.
"Oh. No I didn't. I had Thursday off," I reply, utterly defeated.
"Darn! I'm sorry honey! You two go to the same school though right? So you can just talk to him there!" she exclaims, trying to lift my mood.
"Yeah, you're right! I'm being dumb! Hahaha! I'll just talk to him on Monday. Thanks Maxine!" I say, trying to hide my disappointment. In theory, Maxine is right. I could just talk to him in Physics on Monday. But, the thing is, we both become different people at school. I'm not as perky and hardworking, and he's... well, let's just say he doesn't hang out with the best people. Granted neither do I, but I have no idea what to do about that. So, I've just decided to step back a little and keep trying to find myself, away from them.
The biggest thing I don't know what to do about right now is my crush on Johnny. I was totally ready to tell him at work, where I know who he is, and that he wouldn't react in a way to hurt me. But at school, there's no way for me to know what he'll say when he's around all his friends and peers.
I honestly think that the best thing for me to do would just be to get over it. But, considering how "well" that went with Parker last year, this might be a little more difficult than I'd like to hope it will be. Whenever I see him in physics, I can't help but stare at him, smile, and think about how much I like him. But when I think about how his school self might react to how childish and ridiculous I am in real life... or worse, how depressed and broken I am, I freak out. I don't show that side of me to a lot of people, but if I allowed myself to get as close to him as I want to be, then I would most likely have to. I guess Parker just messed me up a lot more than I actually want to deal with.
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The Mistakes I Have Made
RomanceWhat happens when the mistakes you make when you're tired come back to haunt you? What happens when things finally start to look up, even for a second, but then it's all just ripped away? What happens when there's just not enough time? This is Britt...
