Christopher's pov.
Shan spent her entire day after she's got back home speaking to her friend.
I don't know why she keeps talking to her friends anyway. Am I not enough?
I make her happy and she knows it.
She only needs me, I want her to understand that she belongs to me, I might be selfish but I want her, I want to be her everything. I want her all to me.
It's night already, shan's supposed to do her course work. I hate when she ignores me, is she really ignoring me? Am I in trouble? I really have to say something to seek for her attention
"You've got some course work to do." She got a little surprised by hearing me speaking to her, I've been ignoring her for the whole day.
"Yeah, I must get up and get it done." She was resting her head on her disk, her eyes were closed and I can tell by the way she breathes heavily, something's wrong.
She heads to the library where she put her books "thank you by the way" she waved her hand in the air as if she was seeing me.
I didn't reply back even though I knew she was waiting for a reply.
Sometimes I think she needs to stop hearing me, I hurt her. I make her feel crazy, and she's not, she's been through a lot and I can't blame her.
I'm a poison she needs not to drink.
Shan's pov.
How dare he not reply me back?
He gets on my nerves and I just can't handle it sometimes.
He's driving me insane.
Sometimes I think I need to stop talking to him.
I gather my books and sit them on my bed, I've got tons to do and still haven't started yet. I stare blankly at my notebooks,
I can't stop tapping my pen, or biting my nails it's crazy
Christopher hasn't spoken to me yet and I feel sad, I'm used to his humour and kinky statements. I cannot survive a day without him.
A small noise has interrupted my thought and I realise it's my phone, " I didn't have a chance to see who's calling I just needed the thing to stop ringing already, I couldn't handle the noise," shan, are you free tomorrow?" I hear a familiar voice on the other line, a very close friend of mine "yes rebecca I'm free tomorrow and please don't tell me you need to go do some shopping" she doesn't get bored of shopping and whenever I go with her I buy nothing but gummy bears. "Great then, you go now and I'll catch up with you later."
She hangs up and I resume the studying that I haven't even started
"Why did you tell her you're free tomorrow?" Christopher finally speaks.
"Because I'm obviously free tomorrow" I sound so cold even though I know he's angry
"You should have not told her that, you knew you were going to spend your time with me" he sounds really angry, he makes me feel like I'm a bird with broken wings and he's my savior.
I went to with rebecca to the mall even though christopher didn't want me to "shan, do you still hear the voice that talks to you?" Rebecca asks with concern in her eyes "you mean christopher? Yeah I still do" I frown at her question, I've never expected her to ask such a question.
I take a sip of my milkshake as we talk
"I'm worried about you shan" she stops walking, I felt a hand on my shoulder trying to comfort me, I know she can see the sadness in my eyes, I know it's too obvious even how hard I try to hide it. I look at her as she raises a fine eyebrow at me "I mean, you're the only person that hears that sound, doesn't seem kinda crazy?" I stepped back as if what she said shocked me, I know it didn't but I've never heard it from someone else other than myself. Is it crazy? I closed my eyes for an instant trying to absorb the ugly answer. "crazy? It seems crazy?" She exhaled deeply and corrects herself
"Well, I didn't mean crazy like crazy I just mean it's not normal which means it's crazy, I'm sorry shan I know it's not what you want to hear me saying but it's the truth, and truth hurts." I can tell she's worried about me but she also can't talk about christopher like that, "whatever you say " I look away and turn my back to her to keep walking again, I try to distract myself by looking for a good pair of jeans but it seems like I can't find what matches my needs or I'm too distracted I can't seem to focus on doing anything "I'm sorry shan, I didn't mean to upset you, but the truth must be told."
She broke the awkward silence between us and I wish she didn't, now she got me angry and I can feel my blood running faster in my veins, it's getting hotter and my sweating hands are curled in hard fits
"What truth are you talking about?" I raise my voice as my eyes are pierced to hers, I don't want to make a scene but she's getting on my nerves
"I honestly think that christopher do not exist at all" what the fuck. She can't say that about one of my best friends "what the fuck is wrong with you? You're probably jealous of him"
I shout at her and people start to notice our little arguement, she slightly open her mouth in shock
"Jealous? I'd never be jealous of a stupid ass sound" that's it, I should leave now before I start cussing her out or kicking her ass, am I exaggerating? Gosh I sound like a jealous girlfriend but I honestly can't blame myself, can I?
"I'm leaving" I walk away from her as fast as I can, we're like fire and petrol when we argue. Way to go shan
I make my way upstairs to my room, that's when I hear christopher talk for the first time today "I can't believe she said that about me, she's such a bitch, I told you she's up to no good."
I roll my eyes and sit at the end of the bed "christopher please, I've argued enough for today"
I lay my back on the bed and drift in sleep.
Author's note.
Hello everyone, I hope you're enjoying my book so far, it might be boring at first but trust me,things are going to get really really spicy
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