Don't know what to title this

Im Sorry

Josh went out and bought Lilly a new phone he felt really bad about everything, especially about last night when he asked her to have sex. So he was going to set up a nice im sorry type thing. Josh liked Lilly in the love kinda way but he wasnt to sure if she felt the same way. So tonight he is gonna let her have a night on her own.
WARNING SOME VERY UPSETTING THINGS ARE SAID AND DONE SUCH AS RAPE AND CUTTING YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
Lilly's p.o.v
Tonight i was going out with Jenna and her friends. It consisted of two guys and three girls. I got too the resturant, I arrived before everybody else exepct for this one guy who was Jenna's friend. We talked "I gotta go to the bathroom, I will be right back." I come back from the bathroom everybody is here at the table I picked out. I finished my cup of water by the time everybody left. I wasn't feeling to well so the guy who i talked to earlier offered me a ride home. I couldn't decline so i said sure and before i knew it i was knocked out cold sleeping. I woke up naked, not knowing where i was i looked over and saw the guy. I got up and changed back into my dress from last night, and i felt faint again. I tried calling Tyler and Jenna and they didn't answer,but when i called Josh he answered right away
L-Josh? I-i don't know where i am, im at some dudes house
J-Lilly. Are you ok?
L- I-i dont know if feel all weird like i was taking-
J-(with a shaky and worried tone) Lilly you got- YOU GOT DRUGGED
J-(obiously crying) please tell me he didnt do anything to you.
L- I woke up naked...
J- where does this guy live, im coming to get you.
L(starting to cry) I-i dont know where i am, Josh what if he did do something to me
J-go outside and look at the adress
L-ok
L- it is bla bla bap rd bla bla bla
J-Thank you Lilly.
L- i-i love you josh, thanks and when i say that i mean friend way, i-i.i... im sorry.
J-im here dumb butt now come outside

As soon as Josh came out of the car to help me in i hugged him. This time the hug was a love hug not a make you feel better hug. I started crying i couldn't help it. I asked him if he could stop by CVS to grab some things. He said sure and when we walked in the first thing i grabbed was a pregnency test. I grabbed the one that said to work the best. I also grabbed some icecream for josh and i too enjoy. He looked at the stuff i got as i payed for it. I could tell he was worried. We finally got back to the apartment Jenna was outside with Tyler she looked at my bag and saw the pregnancy test. Josh said that i had a long night and that I didn't feel like talking. I thanked him for saying that. As soon as we walked in i went straight to the bathroom, I tested and it was negative i was so happy. I wouldn't be able to have an abortion if i was pregnet. I walked out woth a smile Josh could tell that it tested negative. He hugged me, and then he said he was going out with tyler to hang out he left and it was just me. Just me in my apartment. I was scared.
Joshs p.o.v
I came home from hanging out with Tyler we had fun we went to go see a movie and we walked around town. I walked inside to see the knife i left on the counter from earlier when i was cutting up an apple it wasn't in the sink or where ot belonged. I went to go check on Lilly i opened the door and turned on the light only to find her on the floor passed out the knife in one hand and her wrist bleeding on the other. I didnt know what to do.