Book of Soul Whispers

Duality

Blackness
Homosexuality
Why can't the two be in the same reality
I am one but am also two
How do I choose when I was born both but the world wants none?
I become withdrawn into myself
Replying to others with a beautiful facade of happiness
I have started transforming into a canvas for others to draw me as
I meander through my life waiting for others to tell me what to be
I become a strong black man for others to lean against for strength
I become a gay man who says yaaass honey whenever I see a girl who is working it.
But I don't become what I actually am until I am alone because being what the world doesn't want you to be is considered suicide.
If I don't sound together
If I don't sound succinct
It's because I am still a shattered spirit that is yearning to be put back together by my mother and father, even though I know they will always look upon me as if I embody sin.
When all I know how to do is be me.