Out Of The System (Collection Of Thoughts)

Yasmiinee 2.0

'The only one you should be in competition with, is who you were yesterday' 

- Unknown 

I'm always trying to be better, smarter, prettier, more adventurous then the person I was yesterday. As I get older, I realize I naturally become these things as time goes on. 

Have you ever done or said something and not given it a second thought at the time then years later someone else does or says the same thing and you remember that moment and see it in a whole new light? This usual happens when you judge something to harshly the first time or the opposite, you say or do something that can be taken offensively and not even realize what you've done/said had that effect on someone. This is seen as getting experience, something in the middle of those two occasions changed in you. Whether negatively or positively. When people hear something is the '2.0' version, they automatic assume it got better, on contrary, the updated version of yourself might be worse then yesterday in some regards and better in others. I'm learning this as I go. 

The prettier version of me isn't the one caked with makeup and in stilettos. The prettier version of me is smiling in the face of struggles and giving a helping hand when it's needed. 

The smarter version of me doesn't have to do with my grade point average or what school I'm in.  The smarter version of me is the one that knows when to be patient, the one that knows when to stand up for myself and when to turn my cheek. The smarter version of myself is the one that contemplates everything around me and is content. 

I use to see myself as boring, the girl with my nose in a book all the time and I'd be waiting for the day my life becomes adventurous. When I'd go to parties and do things I probably shouldn't. I've realized now that being adventurous just means trying new things without judgement, it means knowing this is your life and you should do everything and anything with it while you can. The adventurous version of me knows myself and knows my strengths and weaknesses and does whatever is my idea of living. 

I'm growing and learning, my life has just begun and I'm loving it.