LIES ----- HOPEMIN

Part 1

Jimin

schizophrenia - to have distorted reality

Borderline personality disorder - isn't well understood. Diagnosis is made based on symptoms.
Symptoms include emotional instability, feelings of worthlessness, insecurity, impulsivity, and impaired social relationships.
Treatments include talk therapy or, in some cases, medications. Hospitalization helps if symptoms are severe.

The room. I knew it too well. My mom always brings me here. Almost everyday... Some days I would stay there for days or a week.

Umma says I'm getting better with each visit but i think that's bullshit. They are draining our money for nothing. I never feel better. Infact i usually feel worse than when i showed up.

I miss school. My friends.

These voices in my head taunt me. Every fucking night i lay in bed, i am reminded that I'm alone. No one cares for me enough to stay.

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It's been two days now. Mom hasn't visited. They also jabbed needles up my arms again like i was some kind of monster. Don't they get it hurts? That i bleed?

I walked into my "therapeutic" room and laid down. I hug my knees and stare at a picture of my friends. We were all smiling and namjoon made a silly face. This made me hold on. I miss them. Umma says I might be allowed to see them soon.

Waiting sucks. Like pain you have to suffer until it goes away on its own terms.

I looked at the empty side of the bed and curl up in a ball.

I really am alone.