So I'm not really feeling this story anymore and I'm thinking about discontinuing it or better yet delete it. I'm going through a lot right now. I just started at a new school which is harder than I'm used to.
A lot of people on Instagram were very hurtful. I was talked about and made fun of. I'm going to be honest this has left me feeling empty and useless. I'm feeling like nobody likes me. I was starting to get over my trust issues and let my wall down when my best friend talked about me.
After that I quit and my mother was very unhappy and took my phone for a week or two. She said I wouldn't get my phone back till I deleted my Hamilton fan account and my two bruins accounts.
They were some of the very few things that made me happy, and now they are gone. I made great friends most of which hurt me, a lot.
I feel as if I wasn't treated like a real human that I am. People calling me bitches skanks and pussys. People called me ugly.
They all acted like I don't have ears nor any feelings. I don't get offended very easily but there are a few things which really kill me. I have horrible awful trust issues which suddenly got 100x worse than ever.
I've never had a true friend that I haven't been teased about being friends with. My very best friend is a boy. Everybody finds it funny that I am best friends with a boy. But now I have one true best friend who will always love me. The boy I was friends with called me an asshole and jerk I'm done.
Nobody even knows who I am but that just shows I have no social skills.
I hate myself I'm fat and my family always laughs and laughs at how much I eat and what I'm interested in. Like Hamilton and the Bruins. I'm never aloud to wear bruins shirts outside of the house.
I need help. Help me
I know only 3ish people will see this and won't care a bit but I don't care.
I've even been having suicidal thoughts. If I was to commit suicide only 1 person would care.
I'm just an ugly depressed bitch with no social skills and no friends who has a swearing problem. I probably seem like I want attention but I just want people to be kind to eachother. I hate myself and my life. No one will miss my writing nor me. My 1 real life non internet friend will miss me that's it. My internet "friends" won't even know what happened.
I'm the worst FUVKING person in the world. I need help please
-rant over
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