not so witty bants

ヽ('Д')ﾉ ┻━┻ not gna change it sry tru

I really hate having such developed mental illnesses at such a young age because it's like I literally don't know what aspect of me is illness and what aspect of me is my actual personality and I wish when my mom asked me if I was okay she'd just acknowledge that me bullshitting her with a yes every goddamned time is a lie but she doesn't know how to handle it if I'm honest the only reason both her and my father ask if I'm okay is because they expect me to say yes no I'm not okay I'm literally crumbling depression is so exhausting and all I do is lay down and stare at the fucking ceiling I hate myself I'm so sick I want to not exist I want medication so much I don't wanna snap at everyone all the time I don't wanna never get any sleep or get too much anymore I'm tired and over this not to mention my mom can yell at me for not eating all day and never getting out of bed and never going out with friends and be so oblivious to the fact that my lack of motivation for just about everything is linked to depression like I'm not being lazy I'd just rather wither away than get up and pursue my life like I know she's not a psychologist and didn't read up on depression and anxiety because she never imagined she'd have a child with crippling mental issues but I just kinda thought you'd connect the dots without me having to spoonfeed you detail by detail of why this is happening by now I thought my doctor would've explained some symptoms but I guess not I feel like throwing up I'm done now sorry