Our Song (BTS Scenarios)

Wings

Okay so this isn't an update, more just me venting I guess... so anyways, here goes nothing

When the first short film for Wings came out I was pumped and so excited for such a beautiful concept with deep meaning. Sure I was extremely confused, but I still found it mesmerizing nonetheless.

Then Lie came out, and I was still ecstatic. This time however, I was more confused from Lie than from Begin. But despite being confused, I was still so pumped beyond words.

Now, Stigma is out. To me, Stigma has the clearest plot line and continuity from the HYYH series. It's made the most sense. But it making the most sense sort of led me into a fangirl 'panic attack' of sorts. I was so emotionally drained from having to follow the series, and I guess Stigma was the tipping point. I mean I came home from school and wanted to make a snack, so I tried to make toast and FORGOT HOW. WHO FORGETS HOW TO MAKE TOAST.

Idk, I'm not good at explaining my own emotions, all I know is Wings has drained me mentally, physically, and emotionally.

Like it's gotten to the point where watching the films makes me so emotional that I feel numb almost.... it's like the concepts are so beautiful and deep and it's as if they somehow connect to struggles in the boys' lives. I just.... I don't know how to fully explain how I feel.

Alot of my friends have told me I'm just over exaggerating and I kinda agree, and yet I can't stop feeling this way. I just... I feel like stanning BTS is starting to take a toll on me physically and emotionally and I don't know how to feel about it. I don't want them to affect me like this... yes they are beautiful men with amazing personalities and striking thoughts and views, and yes I love and care for them dearly, but at the end of the day, they're just a Korean artist group. Seven boys who are idols in the Kpop industry... so why are they affecting my life so much?
RANT/EMOTIONAL SPILL OVER

Btw, I'm not asking for pity from this, like I'm not looking for people to be like "oh my gosh you poor soul blah blah blah", I just wanted to get my emotions out in the world to see if someone felt the same way. Also, I haven't uploaded a new  story in a while, part of the reason being this emotional mess I'm in and the other reason being school... so yeah. Sorry guys, I'll try to get my shit together and upload again soon. I DO HAVE A NAMJOON FIC IN THE MAKING SO BE ON THE LOOKOUT. ~Avi❤