My Hero Of Helgan Returns (skyrim fanfic)

Chapter 15- You can't be..... Part one

 The next morning.....

 Waking up, I opened my eyes on my bed. Hadvar...... I groaned and fell back on y bed. After  lastnight, I didn't want to get up. I pulled myself up, and walked downstairs to see the kids eating and Hadvar filling his bowl and mine.

" Good morning mom!" The kids exclaiemed.

" Good orning angels." I said as I sat in my seat. I laayed my head back and covered my face with my hands.

" Are you ok Syndia?" Hadvar asked taking his seat.

" yeah. Just a headache." I said sitting back up. I took a bite of my oatmeal and the kids giggled.

After I ate, i went to my room, grabbed some clothing and walked out holding some flowers.

" I'm leaving!" I announced. Hadvar was by my side in a second asking, " Where are you going?"

" Somewhere special." I announced.

He nodded and by the look on his face you could tell that he knew what I meant.

" Ok, I watch the children for you." He smiled.

" Thank you Hadvar." I smiled. I hugged him getting on my tippie toes, and left. I got on my horse, Mara, and left to that special place, in Skyrim.

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Hours later, I arrived at mmy mothers grave near our old house and favorite tree. The house was literally in the middle of nowhere, just on the plains ear some tall mountains, and hills. I looke at our desserted house and old leafless tree. The grave sat there with my very old flower that I put there as I was a kid. I sat at her graved and put my new flower there.

" Mommy, I'm sorry." I said as I stared at the grave. " I've let so many disrespect you, disrespect our family. I'm truley sorry I let that man kill you." I said very lowly at the end. I felt a tear stream my cheek.

" Mom, I still have neclace you gave me. It's hung in my kids room...."I went silent for a moment as I stared at the grass.I still reember what happend after her death....

16 YEARS AGO......

 I placed my rose down, and my tear fell from my eye. The horrid scene of my mothers blood gushing everywhere, her body clashing to the floor, and most importantly.... the man getting away.

The next day, we left skyrim. My father told me I can return when I please, after I get educated and old enough to live on my own. I swear when I can leave, I will go back to Skyrim and visit her. Cyrodiil was ok to live in but...... if you know what it feels like to loose someone as special as a mom, then you would understand me. I swear to my mother, I will see her again. One day mommy....we'll share eternity......

 my breath was caught in my throat, just remembering those horrid thoughts.

" I promise you mommy." I said. I stood and sucked in a raggd breath. Lots more tears fell as I left my mother.

Once I got hom, it was about to turn night, and the kids and Hadvar was asleep on the couch. I tip toed o the bedroom, and changed my clothes to bed clothes. I came back down to the kitchen and started cleaning. I put the bread awayand rearanged my knife order. I had from biggest to smallest. Just then I felt a tap on y shoulder. I jumped, and turne around to see Hadvar smirking at me.

" you didn't wake me?" He asked.

" You were napping." I said looking down. We were so close.

" Well, it's ok if you wake me up. I had to clean after myself." e said looking at me.