I'm Not Worth It //Septiplier Story//

Emotions?No...

Jack's POV

I wake up in the morning thinking of nothing.Nothing is on my mind all day everyday.All I do is reflect on myself,I ask my self questions and if my mom was here I would ask her,questions like why am I here?Why aren't you here?How do I love learn to love myself?Only if she was here.Why did the devil take her away from me and leave me here.I wish he would have took my life away that same day.I ask myself...why did he take her away from me.She was all I had,all I need,now all i have left of her is this locket and my memories.Why did he take her life away with out taking mine.All I took was one bullet for my life to be ruined.Im never happy,Im never excited, nor glad.Ive too many things thrown at me I'm just use to it all.How can I be happy how can I have any type of emotions besides hate... hate towards myself and everything I stand for and everything I am.I could have just ended it all the day I heard that gun go off I realize the next time I would see my mom was at her funeral.I could have just ended five years ago when my life went to hell.I could have ended yesterday or today but I didn't because I know that's not what my mom would want.She wouldn't want me to throw my life away.But it hard to live without her.For a guy with no emotions I tear up at the thought that I will never see my mom again.Oh yea and that's another emotions I acually have,sadness.There is no tears of joy or happiness where I'm standing.

{SOOOOOOOOOOO that is going to end it for now I just didn't have any ideas left*starts on a new chapter* This story is meant to be kinda sad and depressing but it will get better....AND IF YOU LIKED THIS CHAPTER MAKE SURE TO PUNCH THAT VOTE BUTTON IN THE FACE LIKE A BOSS and I will see u in the next chapter BUH-BYE....!