I'm Not Worth It //Septiplier Story//

Diary

(Jack's POV)

The finally bell rings and everyone head towards the door.When we get to the house I take off my locket and lay it on the table.I walk in the bedroom and lay on the bed, I stare out of the window at the gloomy clouds.

"Looks like it's going to rain" I look over and see Mark leaning against the door frame."I guess" I let out sigh. I really wanted to go out and see a movie with Mark today. Welp I guess and planed out day is over."Don't look sad Jack we can do other things, I'll order some pizza" I turn back over and focus on the big grin on his face

"Alright" I get off the bed and put my coat and shoes back on "where are you going?" Mark looks at me confused. "I'm going to walk around in the rain" I open the door. "Why would you want to do that?" He looks at me with an eyebrow raised. I just shrug and walk out the door.

(Mark's POV)

Well that was weird. He seems,  different,  like there is something wrong.

I walk into the bedroom and my curiosity gets to the best of me. I open the drawers. When I open the drawer I see a red book. It looks like he's had it awhile but its also in perfect condition. I has a lock on it an even if it didn't I would dare read it...would I? I start to really think about it. I stand up taking the book with me. It was like it was glued to my hand,  I wanted to learn about it,  I wanted to know what was in it.

I look over at the table and see Jack's locket. I don't know why but I get up and look at it. Its just a normal heart shaped locket.

I open it and see the tiniest key on plant earth and behind it I see a picture of a woman with brown hair. Jack goes everywhere with his locket why didnt he take it with him.

Without any hesitation I use to key to open the book. There must have been hundreds of words on each page. There were about 20 pages filled with words all smushed together but easy to read.

I read the first page "Mom these mother fuckers sorry for my lanuage mom,  keep bullying me and it isn't stopping. I dont think Anyone cares so I just stopped caring. I know you would want me to stand up for myself but its easy saying,  doing it is the hard part. I wish you were here with me,  it would be easier telling you then telling the teachers."

I flip to the most resent page "Mom I stopped smoking and drinking,  I stopped because I would feel you frown down on me and I don't want that,  I want you to smile, I love your smile" I look on the date...he wrote this yesterday

(Jack's POV)

I walk into a store and buy a pack of cigarettes.I take out a cigarette and light it. I slowly put up to my mouth. A tear falls from my face and I throw the cigarette on the ground and step on it. I take the pack out of my pocket and throw it on the ground. I sit on the curb as my tears flow like the rain. "See mom...I told you I stopped" I stand up and head home as it starts to rain harder

I walk up to the door and open it as I see Mark with my book in his hands "What is this Jack" I just stand there. "I-it's a book M-mark" he looks up at me. I run towards him and try to grab the book.

He puts it in the air and I jump for it. He throws me on to the couch and pins me.

"Why didn't you tell me" I try to break from his grip but he's way stronger than me. "Because I didn't want you to hate me Mark" a tear falls out of my eye. "I don't hate you Jack I just... Wish you would have told me." He gets off of me and let's me stand up.

"I'm sorry Mark" he walks towards me and hugs me rubbing the back of my head as I cry on his shoulder. "I sorry" Mark says. "I'm sorry for reading your book" he grips me tighter. We stand there for a little while.

"I almost smoked today...but i stopped myself... I want to make my mom some what proud of me." He starts rubbing my back

He let's go of me looks me in the eyes. "I'm proud of you" my heart starts beating fast. Was he talking to me. This was the first time hearing that. It makes me..happy. "Thank you" I hug him again.

OK that is it for this chapter and if you liked it PUNCH THAT VOTE BUTTON IN THE FACE  LIKE A BOSS!!!! AND I WILL SEE ALL YOU PPLS IN THE NEXT ONE,  Buh-Bye