Every Bad Girl Needs A Good Boy

Chapter 11// Just Pain

"How are you, my beautiful"

My eyes widened on horror, he's back. I vision became blurry filled with tears, but I tried to hold it back, I didn't want to break down, I didn't want him to see me being such a pathetic cry baby.

"Nathan"

I say in a harsh tone, Nathan Angelo, the man I loved and broke my heart. My first boyfriend, who left me, who left my heart broken into a million pieces, who left me there feeling hopeless and dying.

"My Beautiful?" I asked.

"Love, you will always be my beautiful, Abby"

Why does he do this to me, make me suffer, no matter how I tried he is always there. How he calls my name, Abby. He calls me Abby just like before.

"I am no longer yours Nathan" I managed to speak with gritted teeth. He smirked with this and sighs

"I still love you Abby"

Stupid, pathetic, weak. Don't fall for him, he's just tricking you, he will use you again like the last time. He would play with your feelings. I shook my head right and left rubbing my temples with both hands.

"But I don't" I said harshly

No matter how I tried to avoid him, he would be there, no matter how I tried not to think of him, he is still there, no matter how I deny the truth that I don't want him, but I still do.

"Aubrey, we both know you still do" he said with a smirk, I hated that smirk. I just sometimes hope I can slap that stupid face of his.

But it was true, I did still love him. How my name rolls from his mouth perfectly. Our cherished moments together, I loved him.

"I have to go" I tried to avoid eye contact with him as I tried to escape this horrible event.

But that was not the case, I was stop dead on my tracks, he swiftly grabbed my wrist before I even can get away.

What does he want now?

As if he had read my mind he said, "I am still in love with you, Aubrey"

Here we go again, him saying he loves me, asking for a second chance, no let me rephrase that. Third chance. He keeps on asking for a chance but then leave afterwards.

That's his daily routine, make me laugh and love, then leaves me, asks for another chance, and then breaks my heart. His just that evil, cruel.

"Let me go!" I struggled in his grip on my wrist, it damn hurts, he didn't listen to me, but he tightened the grip. I winced in pain.

"I love you Aubrey, but do you love me?"

I stayed silent, it isn't that easy to answer his question.

"ANSWER ME AUBREY!!"

I stopped moving and looked at him straight on the eyes, I gulped hard on my dry throat and said ..

"No"

Lies. That was one of the hard things to say, all I said were lies. The truth are still sealed within me, I wasn't ready to tell the truth that .....

I still loved him.

No matter, how much he broke my heart, I loved him, this is what made me confused. Why? Why do I still have feelings for him, why do I love him after all he did to me.