I am searching for something
Something that I can hold on
Something that I can love and lose myself to.
Sometimes I feel like I am very close to finding it.
I can feel it.
I can smell it.
It is right in front of my eyes however I need to push it back so I can have a good look at it.
Maybe I don't need to have it.
I just have to know that it is there. Then everything will be ok because everything else becomes an illusion.
My mind will be at peace because I wouldn't care, worry and I wouldn't feel anxious anymore.
I know that day is coming because my mind is still wondering.
The Mind
My mind completes reality when it sees holes
When the world becomes empty and uninteresting
Thank God I have a mind
To paint over your bullshit
To eliminate fear
To create something that is not there
My mind paint over your words if they capture my fears
As long as I have fear I'm not doing what I love
Because what I love is empty and free of fear
I'm just a slave to society that keeps me from truly being myself and that creates fear within me
But that's ok because I have a mind to paint over it
