My Let Out

Never should I ever

A/N: trigger warning

Never should I ever have let these thoughts consume me.

Never should I ever look at my skin and imagine just what it would feel like.

never should I ever listen to those voices.

"You're not good enough. You're not needed. What makes you think you deserve to save your skin? We all know the real reason you do. Hell, why don't you just find a rope and save yourself the effort. It's not gonna matter anyways..."

On and on they talk.

Never should I ever think about these things.

I should ignore them.

But I can't. I feel the cold hands of these voices pulling me under relentlessly.

I kick, I scream but I'm tired.

Never ever should I have listened to those voices.