Sorry it kinda tooka while... Emotional problems which I'm not ready to explain to anyone yet... If you want to know message me privately and I may tell you.... ANYWAY! Enjoy :)
Dear Ellie,
I have no idea how to write this. I can't condense everything about you into a single letter. You're my youngest sibling and I care for you more than myself. If anything happened to you I'd be lost. My life would lose all meaning. I'm starting to sound like a depressing record on reply now. Wait, I shouldn't use metaphors... You won't really understand them much yet. I don't know how to word this next bit. Shows how different we are? You'll soon be able to explain everything to everyone but here's me, your big sister, who still can't put words into a proper sentence. I know people will find it as a shock that you're Autistic and have had Autism since you were born but I don't think the realisation has sunk in yet. I just think of you as my baby girl who I'll never be able to let go. I just feel this need to protect you and shield you from harm. I know I can't do it all the time but I try my hardest. You still can't talk but you've improved so much in 2 years. I guess the only thing that doesn't render you as a typical 5 year old is that you can't talk but other than that you're just like the rest. Mischevious (dropping Mum's phone down the toilet... Twice), giggly, energetic and happy. You don't seem to realise that you may be treated differently due to this disability. Don't you worry though, I'd never treat you differently. I miss you so much it's unreal. I feel like being in boardng school makes me miss out on so much with you. See you soon Els.
Megling xx
Dear Ben,
There's not much I can say! You're a pain in the backside but I love you. You're the only boy in the family (apart from Dad but he doesn't count) and I genuinely feel sorry for you. You've had me, Leo and then Ellie and you're still managing to play footy like there's no tomorrow! There's another reason how I know you're my brother, you're football obsessed and you play the Wii as well as I play the PlayStation. We were never that close as I never saw you but somehow I always had a feeling you were always with me. You worshipped me and I know I don't deserve it but nothing I said diverted you from me being the perfect big sister. I'm sorry I haven't been there but I will try to be more often.
Lot's of Love,
Megling xx
Dear Leona,
You've always been there for me! I can trust you with everything and you're more like a best friend than a sister. If we had met outside of your mum and my dad's marriage, we could be brilliant friends. I used to think your mum was out to get me, but I know she's not! You've made me laugh so much since we hung out a load. I know I can be a pain in the backside but I don't mean it! You've had your bad days too and I know neither of us are perfect but we'll always have each other, right? We're like twins, we think alike and don't like the separation that Dad has created between us now. I need my little (ish) sister back, and I know that it may take time to get you back but I'm willing to try! I miss you, and I've been told you miss me. We were once best friends and I really want that back! I want the carelessness and open relationship of two extremely close sister's back! I've missed the times of fun but I'm worried if we don't fix it now we never will.
Missing you so much,
Megling xx
