50 sʜᴀᴅᴇs ᴏғ ᴅᴇʀɪʟʟᴏ - ᴅɪsᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇᴅ

Can It Just Be Us

Jorel's POV

   "Well," He pauses "Do you?" I ask impatiently "I don't know yet." He sighs "Okay." I smile. He pulls me into a hug "Like I said, we'll have to wait." He smiles. He pins me to the bed and starts tickling my sides. I giggle and grab my sides. "D-Danny stop, that tickles." I laugh "Well duh." He giggles. He continues to tickle me and I start laughing again. I flip him over and start tickling him.

   He starts laughing his beautiful laugh. I couldn't take it anymore. I lean down and passionately kiss him. He pushes me away "Dude, what the fuck." He says angrily "I'm so s-sorry. I just couldn't take it anymore." I start sobbing. He wraps his arm around me "Dude, chill out." He says. I continue to cry. He starts tickling me again to try and get me to laugh. I try to hold back my laughter but I break. I start giggling uncontrollably.

   He smiles and tickles me harder. "You always know how to make me feel better," I giggle "that's why I love you." He rolls his eyes playfully "J, stop packing this with gay vibes." He chuckles. I roll my eyes and giggle. He tickles me harder, making it begin to hurt. I start coughing and sit up. "You okay?" He asks, looking at me worried. I nod "I'm fine, it just started to hurt." He sighs "Do you wanna stop then?" He asks "Yeah, we can continue this later." I giggle.

   He gets up and heads to the door "Where are you going?" I frown "Outside for a smoke? Wanna come?" He grins. I nod and smile. We head outside and he leans against the wall. He pulls out a pack of cigarettes and gets one out. He puts it in his mouth and lights it. He hands me one and I kindly take it. I put it in my mouth and make a silly face, making him giggle. I light up the cigarette and smoke it, making me cough.

   We go inside and sit on the couch. I sit on his lap but he pushes me off "Dude, get the hell off me." He says. I frown and scoot off of him. I sit in quietness while he plays on his phone. "Danny," I say after a while. He sighs angrily and rolls his eyes "What J." I sigh "Are you pissed at me or something right now?" I ask with a confused expression. He sighs and his attitude changes "No, sorry J." He smiles "Can I ask you something?" I smile a small grin "Yeah, I guess." He shrugs "Can we- Can we, maybe, be something more?" I ask "I don't know, what do you mean?" He asks. I sigh "Can you, maybe, be my, uh, b-boyfriend?" I look down "I don't know, I'll have to think about it." He sighs. I frown and sigh. I lean over and kiss him on the cheek. He playfully shoves me and laughs.
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   Tonight was the first night that I had slept without Danny. I kept tossing and turning. My nightmares had gotten more and more worse. I just couldn't sleep without having bad nightmares. I get up and walk to Danny's room. "Danny," I whisper. No response. "Danny," I whisper louder. He groans "J, what is it? It's 2 am." I frown "Can I sleep in here? I can't sleep." He sighs "Fine, I don't care. Get in the bed." I smile and get into the bed next to him. "Thanks Danny." I kiss him on the cheek and hug him from behind "Yeah yeah, whatever." He says sleepily. He instantly drifts off to sleep, snoring lightly.

   I sit there and listen to his light snores. Maybe it was kinda creepy to watch him sleep, but I don't care. I fall asleep soon after a while.
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Danny's POV

   I wake up and look over to see Jorel in my bed. Wait, when the hell did he come in here? He probably did when I was asleep or something. I poke his side lightly. Nothing. I poke him harder, making him groan and stir. "J, wake up." I whisper softly. He stirs again. I smirk "J, wake up!" I yell in his ear. He jumps in shock and falls in the floor. "Shit." He groans and rubs his head. I giggle "Sorry." He rolls his eyes and mutters "Asshole" and gets up off the floor. He stands up but I instantly tackle him to the floor. "Dude, what the hell." Jorel says tiredly "Come on, play with me." I giggle. He rolls his eyes and pushes me off. I frown at him "You okay?" I ask. He shakes his head "Wanna talk about it?" I ask him. He shakes his head again and looks down at the floor.

   I walk up to him from behind and hug him. He turns around and looks at me with a confused expression. I kiss him on the cheek and let go of him. He stands there and stares at me with a confused look on his face.

Jorel's POV

   I can't tell him. It would hurt him. A few days ago, I've started having horrible nightmares. A few days before that, I started having anxiety attacks. I didn't feel right about it. He looked at me and frowned. "J, are you sure you don't wanna talk about it?" He asks. He was really worried about me. Heh, he did care. "Danny, I'm fine. I promise." I lie. He shrugs it off and hugs me. He opens the door and exits, leaving me to stand in the empty room by myself. I felt horrible for lying to him, but maybe it was for the best. Hopefully this doesn't go deeper to where I can't get my way out of it. To where I'm in a pit of my own lies with no escape.