50 sʜᴀᴅᴇs ᴏғ ᴅᴇʀɪʟʟᴏ - ᴅɪsᴄᴏɴᴛɪɴᴜᴇᴅ

I Can't Decide

Danny's POV

   I hope Jorel's okay. There seems to be something wrong with him, but he won't tell me what's wrong. I'm starting to get really worried and scared. There's something he's not telling me, something important, it must be really bad. I want to ask him what's wrong, but he's not going to tell me. I really care about him and I don't want him to hurt.

   Jorel walks out of his room and sits down next to me. He has a worried look painted across his face. I poke his cheek and he looks at me. I hug him tightly, never wanting to let go, but he pushes me off. "Jorel, what's wrong?" I ask. He shakes his head and sighs. I start to get pissed off "Jorel, fucking tell me what's wrong right now!!" I yell. He jumps in shock, a scared look plastered on his face. I know, so much noise coming from such a small person. He frowns "Fine, I'll tell you." He sighs. I grin "For the past few weeks, I've been having nightmares and bad anxiety attacks. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to freak out." I felt like my whole world had shattered.

   He was hurting and I was so blind to not know about it. He seemed happy, he could fake a smile really well. I hold onto him tightly. "Please never leave me okay." I cry. He frowns "I'm gonna be fine, Danny." I grasp onto him tighter. I look up at him and stare into his brown eyes. He shakes me off. I didn't care, I hugged him again, not letting him get me off.

Jordan's POV

   When I walked into the room, Danny and Jorel were 'cuddling' on the couch. I wish they would just go out already. They already act like a couple anyway. I sat down next to them and Danny cuddled into Jorel more. Jorel pushed him away but he grabbed onto him again. I chuckled "You two are so cute." Their cheeks turn pink "You two should go out, you'd be a cute couple." I smirk. Jorel's face turns red "That would be a good idea..." Danny chimes in, making Jorel and I do a double-take. "W-What?" Jorel blushes "I was kidding." He giggles "And maybe I wasn't." Danny whispers, still audible enough for me to hear.

   Danny got up and left. Jorel and I sat in silence for a while, until Jorel broke the silence with a sigh. I look over at him "You okay?" I raise an eyebrow at him "I wanna be his really bad, but he's making it so hard." He murmurs, I nod. He gets up and walks off, probably going to find Danny.

Jorel's POV

   I walked into Danny's room and he was in the bathroom taking a shower. I sat on his bed and waited for him to get out. After a few minutes, he walked out with a towel wrapped around his waist and I gawked at him. He looked up at me and almost jumped out of his skin. "Holy shit J." He tries to cover himself up more. I just shake my head and smirk "You did that on purpose didn't you." He gives me a strange look.

   He walks back in the bathroom and comes back in fully clothed. He sits on the bed next to me and hugs me. "Why do you hug me so much?" I ask "Because you're soft and you smell nice." He smiles. I poke his cheek lightly and that's when it happened. He kissed me. He ACTUALLY kissed me. Like, lovingly kissed me. He pulled away and cuddled up into my chest. I just sit there and state at them and he acts like nothing had happened.

Danny's POV

   I got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. I walked into my room and saw Jorel sitting on my bed. He scared me to death "Holy shit J." I said with fright. I try to cover myself up with my hands. He shakes his head and smirks "You did that on purpose didn't you." He says. Did he seriously just say that? I race back into the bathroom and throw my clothes on. I walk back out and sit on my bed next to him.

   I wrap my arms around him and hug him tightly. "Why do you hug me so much?" Jorel asks "Because you're soft and you smell nice." I grin. He pokes my cheek and I just go for it. I kiss him gently and sweetly, full of love. He blushes deeply and stares at me. I cuddle into his chest and soon fall asleep in his arms.

~

   When I wake up, I was tucked into my bed, no one next to me. I frown at that and swing my legs over the bed. I instantly remembered what I did last night to Jorel. I didn't really feel bad, I know he probably enjoyed it anyway. I chuckle at the thought. I get up and go in the livingroom to see J and Jordan sitting on the couch. "Hey there princess." Jordan smirks at me. I roll my eyes at him and sit next to Jorel. He gives me an odd look, I wonder why.

   I tilt my head at him and just sit there in confusion. Was he mad at me for what I did? Probably. It was kind of a dick move. I sit over next to Jordan "Is he okay?" I whisper to him and he shrugs "Dunno, he seems kinda pissed." I look over at Jorel and he was leaning against his fist with his legs crossed over.

Jorel's POV

   I am so pissed at Danny. He does that shit to me, knowing I love him. Yeah, it was full of love but...I don't know exactly. He never actually answered my question, so it doesn't really mean we're dating or anything right? Danny gets back and sits next to me. I just stare at him. He giggles and kisses me on the cheek. "You remember that question you asked me yesterday?" He asks. I nod and blush, remembering when I asked him out yesterday. He smiles "It's a yes then." Wait did he just say yes to it? Is he my boyfriend now?!