Smiling Water (A Book of Random)

Yup 2

Yup. I'm kinda depressed right now. Everybody on Skype is acting really happy. I'm not going to name names. But it has something to do with something else that I'm not going to name. But I used to be a part of it and I'm never going to get the chance to do it again and I cry just thinking about it. I really liked being a part of it. But now I'm not and there's nothing I can do about it. Even if my friends are constantly talking about it, I have to pay attention to what they're saying or I could be left out of it for a while. I feel like I'm not getting as much attention as I used to. I sounds selfish but it's the truth. Oh god. I feel really guilty for saying that now. I hate myself. I still sound selfish. I hate being selfish. But sometimes I can't help it. Ok. That's it for now.

Have a good life.

:)