Its fear

It al started with him

Sometimes we get feelings and we dont know what kind of feeling it is , when i get that kind of feelings i get scared... Its just the fear of not knowing what this feeling will do to me.

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As soon as i wake up. i start screaming
"What are u doing here!"
Shhhh ,he said to me and covers my mouth with his hands.
As soon as he lets go:
"Why are you in my room , how did you even get in and what..."
Sssshh ,he intterups me :"dont say anything"

After a few minutes of killing silence and burning questions racing thru my head i ask : "why? "
He awnsered me with a kiss .
After a couple more minutes he says :"i 'm afraid .."
"Off what?"
"Losing u"
I smiled at him while he was lookin me in the eyes while says :"u are so cute"

From down stairs:"honey breakfast is ready"
"I'm comingg!!" I yelled back

As soon as i finished my breakfast i ran upstairs but he was already gone

I just sat on my bed amd though about his words u are cute it kept replaying in my mind . It gets harder and harder im starting to scream . "Noo!!not againn! Pleaseee helpp!" Every thing starts to twist, i get dizzy and fell of my bed . The last thing is see is my mom crying in the corner of my room.

"Were am i , what happend?"
I opend my eyes ,im laying in a bed and all is see is white . Every thing is so blurry amd my head is shaking . I hear someone say : "you need to rest " the voice is very familliar .
And i then i remember i had a panic attack!
I look to the right and see 2 persons but very blurry ,one is wearing white and the other one is my mom .am i in the hospital? What happend ? How long have i been here ?how long do i need to stay ? Questions are running thru my head . And then i hear my mom say: "every thing is okay ,youre gunna be okay "
She looks deep in my eyes and sees my frustration and fear . She walks away and have a litlle chit chat with the docter .
The next thing i see is the docter giving me a drink and it makes me really sleepy

I cant remember how long i have slept but i must been in a very beautiful dream, cause when i woke up i was at my house . i didn't even realise that i went all the way from the hospital to my home while my mom tried to wake me up (at least that what she tolled me what happend)...