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Fresh Starts [1]

New beginnings.

I always loved the idea of them. Starting fresh, no one knowing who you are. The idea fascinated me and still continued to do so until this day. I always wanted to start fresh and not be known as "poor Avery Jameson." One of the things I hated most in life was when people felt sorry for me, so this year I was determined to start fresh. No one would know who I was and what I've gone through. They would just know me as Avery Jameson and hopefully nothing more.

Many people find it hard to hide a part of themselves to the whole world but I find it exciting. I like to think of it as being an undercover agent, no one knows the full you. You get a thrill in that, because you can be whoever you want. And that's what I was determined to do.

Getting up from my bed, after snoozing the alarm clock at least two times, I went over and started to get ready. School started today and I was determined to make the most of it.

I looked at the selection of wigs in my room and settled for a medium length brown haired wig with purple highlights. It wasn't the one I usually wore but I was feeling extra confident today. Looking at the mirror, I ran my hand through my shaven head but refused to feel sadness. The day when I cut it was unfortunate but it had to be done. Carefully placing the wig on my head and brushing it, I picked my outfit for the day.

It was the first day of school after all and I had to look my absolute best. There wasn't much in my closet since shopping hasn't been my priority lately but I settled on a cute floral printed dress. Deciding that I was finally ready to venture onto school I grabbed my bag and headed down stairs. In the kitchen my brother Lee was furiously eating his cereal while my mother was patiently waiting for me.

"You look beautiful Avery." My mother said as she grabbed a banana and handed it to me.

"Thank you mother, I tried." I responded cheekily while I took the banana and started to peel it. Bananas were the only thing I can tolerate eating after my treatments and I soon learned that after I spent a whole day in the bathroom vomiting when I ate a bowl of mac and cheese.

"I still think you should go bald," My brother began, "with the time you have left, you should take risks. If you're up for it we could still graffiti the wall I showed you." Lee uttered before drowning the last of his cereal.

I sent him a glare to which he responded by putting his hand up in the air in surrender. I didn't really mind when Lee joked about my condition since I have grown to accept the time I have left but my mom was still sensitive to the subject.

"That wasn't funny Lee." Was all my mom could say before I saw faint traces of tears on her eyes.

"Now look at what you've done." I said to my brother as I handed my mom a tissue.

"Hey, I was just trying to joke around."

"I'm sorry. I know that crying about it annoys you but I still can't believe this is happening." My mother wiped the tears from eyes before throwing the tissue into the bin.

"I know mom. But it is going to happen. I just have to learn to accept it."

This only made my mom sadder but she let out a small smile before giving me a hug.

I've learned not to let it annoy me anymore and just let it pass. I couldn't imagine having to accept the fact that your daughter is going to die in less than a year and there is nothing you could do about it.

I let the hug linger for a moment longer before I let go and grabbed the car keys.

"I have to go or else I'll be late mom. Come on Lee, get your ass off of that chair or else I'm leaving you."