I beg him to love me , yet I give him every reason not to
I try to make people have sympathy for me , yet I'm the cause of my own pain
I smile and try to act happy going through my daily motions , but on the inside I'm tearing doors down , breaking glass and punching walls while crying. I feel so empty inside so I believe my heart is gone I never feel it there and I swear I can never breath
There's only enough to keep me living ... but I don't feel alive
I never knew he possessed so much of me but I see it now that your gone ...
Your my soul , but you left my body , now your standing across from me, watching as I die hoping I feel the same pain you did ... believe me I do and I'll forever feel this way I have nothing left anymore but a temporary happiness and a mask to fake my smile.
I remember when I would take pain pills just to go to sleep at night but it never really stopped the pain in my chest and I still cried as I tried to go into a drug induced sleep to get through the night , I tried to think of other ways to end my pain but the only thing that came to mind was dying , being alive already feels like I'm dead, I was just waiting on God to do the honors and end it for me but I'm still here and nothing is better the devil is wrapped around my ankles and he doesn't even have to pull to bring me down I give up so he wins , I live in my pain and mistakes the way he wants me to .
