Spare Me A Glance

silent agreement (the talk)

I cleared my throat and lifted myself off the bed and put on a long shirt and then slipped under the blanket, kellan meanwhile put on his boxers and announced that he's going for a shower.

I silently stared at the ceiling, time seemed to have stopped and seemed to be passing by agonizingly slowly while I waited for kellan to return, my mind filled up with questions and thoughts that slowly melted into one and then darkness took over.

kaiya, hey listen kaiya, wake up, I felt a slight nudge on my shoulder, I mumbled some incoherent words, grumbled a bit and turned my face in the other direction

I could faintly hear a slight chuckle behind me, my legs felt cool and a slight breeze brushed upon it, I fumbled around with my legs for a blanket to cover up my bare thighs.

something warm and soft trailed down my neck, and a strong pair of arms encircled me around my waist and pulled me back into a comfortable backrest, I wiggled my hips a bit and made myself comfortable and then fell asleep again......

I woke up with a splitting head ache and my mouth felt parched, I moved slightly and felt myself tightly wrapped up in the arms of kellan, wth? I fell asleep?? shit, shit, shit

and why the hell am I in his arms?? I thought, well right now is not the time to ponder over this, I  gently pull away from kellan so as to not wake him up, tip toe about the room and find my pieces of clothing and rush to the bathroom.

to put it simply I look like a mess

I straight away jump into the shower and scrub myself all over, after that I dry myself and tie my hair up in a towel and tie one around my body. I place myself on the bathroom sink and rub some lotion on my legs and hands, then I do my makeup and dry my hair with a hair dryer and while looking through the drawers find a medicine to swallow to make my hangover a bit better.

I put on some of anna's clothes, fitted jeans and a sleeveless top and put a fitted leather jacket over it and make my back to the room. kellan's still sleeping I see, I smile a little when I see him clutching on to the pillow and sleeping soundly and make my way to the mini kitchen kind of area in the room and make two glasses of coffee and help myself to some croissants as well. I take the a plate of food and the other glass of coffee, put it on a tray and make my way towards the bed and sit down on the edge of the bed. I leave the tray beside me and climb and sit on top of kellan's chest, with each leg on either side of him and poke him so that he wakes up

his golden brown eyes open up, blink a few times and stare straight into mine, he smiles and says good morning, I smile and get off him, I made you coffee and brought you your favorite......wait for it....wait for it.....croissants!. he laughs and sits up in bed and takes the tray from my hands

hahaha thanks Kai'

I wait patiently for kellan to finish his food so I could finally have the talk with him, there was something I wanted to ask him, and if what I saw yesterday night meant anything,i mean I hope it did, then this plan might just work, I plopped myself across from him and sit on my hands with my fingers crossed

as kellan is taking his last bite, I start to talk

so um kellan, I needed to talk to you about something, something important, um...so will you listen??

ive gotta stop saying um so much, it seriously doesn't help my confidence factor, but I cant help it, him sitting in just his boxers is quite a distracting sight, *SIGH*

anyways back to the point at hand, before I lose my confidence, so well kellan I need you to answer my questions honestly with a yes or no, no in between answers, just take it like a game of 20 questions or something, okay?

he nods his head, with a slight frown on his head

I take a deep breath and shift a bit closer to him....

so do you regret last night, like do you think it wasn't good enough?

he shakes his head, no he says

ok good, this is going well till now

are you finding this super awkward right now, because, you know we're best friends and all...

he shakes his head again, no not at all....wait are you? he asks

I shake my head, nope

ok well then, do you like someone?

he hesitates, not knowing where this is going, um.....n...ye....ya I do, he says a bit uncertainly

would that person happen to be ana?

kellan stiffens, and stares right at me

wha.....how??.....did..u.....what?!

I smile, kellan I saw you yesterday, you were practically seething when Austin chose ana to sleep with him, and then well there were many other tiny tiny things like that, that made it so obvious you have feelings for her...so well yaa.....

my heart squeezed in pain when it finally hits me that he actually likes her, but that's weird right?

I shrug it off and squeeel omgggg, how long has it been??

he blushes, um....since grade 9 I guess, since she chose me in the selection

4 years??! holy shit! the playboy liked his best friend for 4 effin years??? I wish someone liked me that much, everyone just thought of me as a dumb stupid bimbo and I wish I could change that status about myself, but that would have to wait

so well why are you asking me this kai'??says kellan with a hint of curiosity in his tone

I peek up at him through my eyelashes, well um...I kinda have a thing for.....um.....never mind lets go meet the others shall we??

wai....kai' hey tell me please.....

nothing, tell you later k?

lets get going, i have to get home, my mom thinks im having a night stay at ana's, so cant be here for too long

after saying this I move towards the side table pick up my cellphone and car keys and start making my way out the door, before kellan says something that stops me in my tracks just as im about to reach for the door....

kaiya....will you go out with me??