Spare Me A Glance

this game goes my way

Havana's point of view

he did not just say that

the moment kellan's lips came in contact with kaiya's, my hands clenched into a fist at my side, if someone saw my face im pretty sure they must have thought that I was some gaping goldfish, my eyes were practically jumping out of its sockets, my mind was not able to comprehend what was happening in front of me, I cant let this happen, I don't WANT it to happen

I closed my eyes for a second took a deep breath of air and intertwined my fingers with Austin's, he glances at me sideways and gives me a small amused smile, I just let it pass

okay, maybe I should rewind a bit and tell you why exactly im so pissed, you see during the selection the reason I chose kellan in 9th grade was because I had a big crush on him, he meant everything to me, but the popularity got to him and me and I wont deny it, I started dating this boy one batch above me, thinking it would help me gain some experience for kellan's sake and help me make him a bit jealous, but he was walking down a completely different road, his obvious good looks made him a girl magnet and both of just went on a downwards spiral from their.

the only difference between me as a PLAYGIRL And him as a PLAYBOY was that I dated guys for a month or two and dumped them, while he didn't date at all, he just humped and dumped

when we selected kaiya in grade 10 I thought everything would be better, I would have a person who'll listen to my every command, listen to me without complaining, follow me without question and maintain my reputation basically, but I was very wrong

after her makeover, she looked gorgeous, she outshone me in every way, her family was intact, she had guys drooling at her feet in seconds, she was extremely smart and naturally good at flirting, making conversation. the most annoying part was that she had a good heart, so I never had a reason to go against her, and though it sounds selfish, even though she has always been there for me, I have always tried to avoid being there for her.

my insecurities just kept growing over the years and she never even noticed, she lived under my shadow and I let it be that way, but now that she has kellan, I need to do something about it

okay I know you must be thinking what about Austin?? well okay ill admit it the sex, it was good, hell it was amazing, especially for someone whose first time it is, and I liked him, but that's about it, I didn't feel anything more towards him as like I said my heart belongs to kellan and kaiya cannot fuckin have him.

I knew kaiya had a thing for him the moment I saw her staring at Austin descending the stairs, she was staring at him like she had never seen someone more beautiful in her entire life, and when kaiya chose kellan in the game of triple dare I knew I had to do something, and jealousy is the oldest trick in the book, but my plan went completely haywire when I got to know these two are dating. so now the rules will have to be changed, and this game will go my way

because,

he's mine.