I looked at the small box in my hand... Something he gave me hours before he put a bullet in the back of his head, i was so pissed... And so upset... How could he do something like this to me? How could he leave me all alone? Why, Sky, Why?
~Memory~
My heart jumped out of my chest as I woke up to the sound of a gun shot, my first reaction to reach over and wake my boyfriend, but he wasn't there. Fear fills me completely as I stand up and grab a bat we had by our bed for emergencies like this.
I slowly crept down the stairs to the living room, noticing the light on in the study as I made my way over to it, pushing the door open slightly as I drop the bat to the floor as I cover my mouth with my hands, tears flowing as I scream, "SKY!"
~Present day~
I still had that box he gave me.. it's been about three years... I just... Never opened it... I didn't have the heart to... I was angry... I was pissed at him... Being mad kept me from grieving... But I was so low at this moment, I feel into hardcore drugs, I lost my job, my house, my family, I was nothing... I needed to feel something I was so.. empty... So i decided i would open it...
I opened the red box that was now so old that the velvet had torn, and inside it held a folded up paper and a necklace I thought i lost years ago... In fact it was the necklace he had gotten me on our first date... I practically bawled my eyes out as I moved the small locket out of the way and unfolded the paper. It read:
Dear, Asher.
If your reading this It means I wasn't strong enough to move on... even though you make me so happy depression has gotten the best of my mind and i just can't anymore, the voices are too loud... everywhere i turn I'm unwanted and hated... Hell my own family doesn't even want me.. so yes... I'm doing the only thing i know to do... Give up... but what you don't know is that I still live... Inside of you... Your heart, Your love, every little thing you do I'm there, I'm watching over you. I promised to keep you safe, Ashy... My babygirl...
I love you so much... And I'm so sorry... I just wasn't meant for this world...
Don't think that I'm doing this because I'm unhappy with you or anything you do, I'm so sorry...
So... I guess this this is goodbye... Please.. stay alive for me?
I smiled slightly threw my uncomfortable tears as i let the note fall to my lap as i laid back into the couch my head falling to the side as i look off to the side, my eyes catching a glimpse of my bruised arm, but that wouldn't matter now considering the three large cuts on my wrist were allowing me to slowly bleed out, letting me let go of life slowly.
"I forgive you.."
I closed my eyes and my lungs let out a final breath of air as all life leaves my body
And that was his last letter to me.
