Sweet and Sour || Seventeen Fanfic

12 Step Step

blog entry: 12

words: 453

summary: crying is embarrassing lol don't hate me

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12 steps. 12 steps into walking away, he ran to me. dripping wet, he pulls me into his arms and i can't help but sob. yes the ugly sob i know i suck.

back story from last entry. i told him how much i liked him. he yelled at me. surprise surprise. turns out he has problems of his own and i just had to see his conversation with that girl. apparently it's his older sister? idk minghao scoffed when he replied "older sister" so he might have been lying but i sort of dont care whether or not he lied. im just happy he came towards me.

minghao walked me to my house since it suddenly rained and wel i was crying and jihoon followed us. he caught up eventually right before we went in to my house and he said sorry.

yup he apologized. okay not at that moment at first he gave me a lecture and was yelling. i know it was all my fault but at the time i didn't understand the situation nor was I mentally prepared for what was happening. jihoon means a lot to me so i was genuinely torn apart. i still am thinking of how much trouble i caused for him.

anyway he kept trying to explain the situation and i was already done i told him i was sorry for my feelings and didnt want to deal with looking at his face because it hurt knowing i would have to get over him because of how angry he was at me and how much he hated me.

i turned away from him and was about to head inside but that's where the intro comes in. jihoon pulled me into a hug and i couldnt help but let out my tears and actually sob. he chuckled and i went on how much i felt.

"i really thought you hated meeeee." I literally dragged out that word as i was crying which i think is the reason jihoon chuckled.

"i do hate you." he mumbled, still holding me in his arms. i didnt know whether to be happy or upset. so i pulled away and yelled at him this time.

"hey! dont lead me on like that and tell me you hate me!" i wiped my tears trying to look tough and he just went on laughing.

"don't like anyone else but me." he started patting my head because he was so tall i dont think my shoulder was good enough for him.

well believe it or not he actually said that. im surprised myself tbh lol bye. this is what confuses me do i like him or not im all over the place rn.