Dear Samantha,
It's six a.m and my phone has been blown up all night. It's unusual, considering i'm a total social outcast. i ignore the messages and get it the shower with my music playing. i hear a knock on the door, i ask who it is to only discover that its Fred. what could he have possibly wanted? he told me that he was sorry that he was so hard on me, i wanted to cry. I refused to show him how much he hurt me.
After he finally leaves i continue getting dressed. I finally look down at my phone only to see that Bobby ad texted me all night and is still texting me. I felt kinda special.
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Bobby: hey look i have to tell you something
Bobby: i know your sleep and all but,
Bobby: i thought what better time then when your sleeping.
Bobby:okay look here the deal idk how you feel about me but I've liked you since the day i firs laid eyes on you, you are beautiful. what you heard in homeroom was a misunderstanding , i was explaining to those guys why i like you. i want a weird girl one that people consider to be a freak. i don't want any "miss perfect" type girl. nor do i want a girl like you. sarah i want you.
Bobby: anyways i hope your sleeping well having the sweetest of dreams. text me when you wake up beautiful. i really do care about you no matter what you think of yourself or what you think i feel.
Me: uhm gm bobby uhm. did you by chance mean anything you said last night? and did you sleep at all?
Bobby: no i was afraid that you had done something to yourself. I wanted to make sure that you were okay and i meant every word.
Me: so whats this mean?
Bobby: well i mean if you want to like if your okay with it... id like for you to be my girlfriend.
Me: lemme guess we can date but when yur with the guys your a single man who cant stand the sight of me and our relationship is only real when we are alone. i dont have time for heartbreak games.
Bobby: nooo nothing like that at all we will always be together idc who knows about us your mine why should i care what they think.
Me: gtg stepdad alert.
......... I cant believe he did that waht if he playing me. just as i was about to tell him i accept in walks jeff " why are you so lazy, your mother should've gotten an abortion or put you up for adoption or something. i hate you and cant wait til you move out of my house" i just shalke my head put it down and say i know. Already drunk and its not even eight a.m he goes to leave but turns around and punches me in my jaw. finally he leaves and i go in the bathroom to apply makeup yo my face to cover all the bruises.
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Bobby: what is that please explain when you get a chance. and tell me whether you accept or not.
Me: its hard to explain right now. yes i accept.
Bobby: come on so we can walk to school.
Me: uhh ok just don't knock on the door.
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We walk to school and hes asking about Jeff i told him how he is verbally and mentally abusive when he drinks to much. As we get close to the school i ask him if he wants me to fall back, and he grabs my hand. Is he really doing this. We enter the building everyone stares at us so i put my head down, only to feel him lift it right back up and kiss me. I cant believe he did that. In the halls though.
Once school ended he was at my class waiting for me and he walked me all the way home. We got in front of my house and he kissed me and said that he would be back shortly and we would go walking. He walked to his house i open my front door and feel a glass being hit on my head, i lay in the floor crying in the fetus position. I finally get myself together an run to my room put my things down and run out the house, i text Bobby to meet me at the park.
He arrives 30-40 minuets later and ask why i was there so fast. i just laid on his chest and cried. He noticed the blood on my hair and head. He picked me up and walked to his house. When i finally looked up i was lost, i didn't know where i was. he appeared from what seemed to be the bathroom and he started tending to my injury. When he was finished i look at the time quickly hug him and dash home.i try to unlock the door but he said i had to sleep outside. i go to he hut in the backyard and slept there all night.
until tomorrow,
Sarah
