fuck it

friens¿?

i feel like im losing everyone.

the one girl *Kami* who said no matter what happens she would never leave has been ignoring me for the past week and I have no idea why. She is my only reason to keep fighting and now she is mad at me.

my friend *Rose* who has been there for me through everything is now just not talking to me after i set them up with a different friend *C* and now neither of them talk to me like at all.

Another person who I feel like I'm losing is my best friend *Matt*. recently we got in a fight but we have gotten past it but he still isn't talking to me. I don't know what happened but I miss him.... a lot and I don't know what to do with out him.

Also my "daughter" *Mallory* has just kind of vanished from my life I hear from her occasionally but that's still rare. and I miss her. I miss her voice. I miss her face. I miss her laugh. she made life so easy to live and gave me a reason to hold on. I love her but I never hear from her anymore and idk what to do.

oh whale