Evanescent

The Wind

'Today is such a beautiful day, huh Annie?' You asked me as you removed your shoes to feel the grass with your feet. You were always the funny and silly one in our friendship. You were the one who would make me laugh on a sad day. Like that one time when I got an F on my Sociology 4, you cheered me up by saying terrible puns all day long. And also that one time when I lost the bracelet that my mom gave to me so you made one for me using rubber bands. I still wear that until today you know? It's cute and I really appreciate it.

'Yo, Annie, you okay bruh? You're spacing out again.' 

'Yes Leslie. I'm fine. I'm just appreciating on how beautiful the day is. It's just that... it's been a while since I've gotten out from my house. I didn't go out for like, a month or so...' It is indeed a beautiful day. The sun is shining. The birds are singing. The flowers are beautifully blooming and the wind is so refreshing and relaxing. It's been a while since I've felt this relaxed...

'I can see that... ' You said with a worried face. 'Well, you should really go out more often. It's good for the body and good for your health!'

'But going outside to appreciate this beauty is only fun with my best friend.' I smiled at her. I was the type of girl who didn't smile that much. Call me an introvert because I know I am. 

'Aww Annie...' She smiled sweetly, but soon her smile faded away into a small frown. 'But Annie... you know that I can't do that right? I have to move away soon.'

'I know Leslie... I know.' I replied as my smile soon faded away as well. The wind grew stronger.

'Annie, we'll still be best friends right? The distance doesn't matter anyways!' You said with your usual optimistic tone. The tone that you would use to cheer me up in my darkest of times. You are the light that taught me how to feel happiness in my sad life. My father passed away when I was young and my mother moved away with another man. I was all alone with no one to share my life with until I met you one Monday morning in school. Who would've guess that I'll meet the person who would change my life forever in a boring Monday morning in a classroom?

'Leslie, I'll miss you so much.' 

'I'll miss you more, Annie. And you know that.'

The wind grew stronger and stronger as I tried to fight back my tears. I don't want you to go Leslie. I don't want you to leave. I don't want to live in depression and fear again. You are my happiness Leslie. You are the reason why living is... fun again.

'Annie, promise me one thing.' You said while holding my hand.

'Yes Leslie? What is it?'

You held my hand tightly and smiled with tears in your eyes. 'Take care of yourself. Okay?'

I nodded while still trying to fight back my tears. The pain of seeing you cry infront of me is too much. You would always greet me with smiles and laughs, so seeing you like this really really hurts. I can feel my heart aching.

'..... Leslie?'

'Yes?'

'When will I see you again?'

'I don't know, Annie...'

'....'

'....'

'....How long can you close your eyes?'

And then you were gone. The wind started to calm down slowly. The sun started to set and the birds stopped tweeting.

It's been a month since my best friend died in a car accident. I lived in depression for a month. I didn't go out of my house. I didn't interact with other people. Life was pretty much worthless. I was sure that I won't be able to live normally again but I know she wouldn't like that. I'll live on, Leslie. For you.

I finally felt my tears fall down across my face.....

....

Maybe because I finally opened my eyes?