The next day shit went down between Kian and Jc. I was almost positive it was about or included me, but Justin insisted it wasnt. Ricky comforted me in his room while they were fighting, considering ive never seen Jc like this it was terrifying. Jc got to out of control and Ricky had to go downstairs and pull him away from Kian to prevent no one from getting hurt.
As i sat on Ricky's bed and watched Jc grab his camera and his phone. I had a perfect veiw casting through the crack in Ricky's door right into Jc's room across the hall. I was shaking so much, i wrapped myself in a blanket to try to feel more comforted while Ricky was gone. Jc was just leaving his room and shutting the door behind him when he gazed into Ricky's room and saw me, "I know sorry wont cut it this time so im not even gonna say it." He gave me a kiss on my forehead and drove away.
Im lucky i had a good bound with the other guys, otherwise id be completely alone in the house with no one i knew or no one who knew me. Like three minutes later i heard someone coming up the stairs, it was Kian. He walked into the room sat on the bed and grabbed my hands and gently held them in his, "Listen, that whole incident is nothing you need to worry about. Jc is never like that. I am never like tht. I can promise you that, but Jc did lie to you."
I started to tear up, "About what?"
"No, no. No crying aloud. He lied to you about the whole fight not being about you, to protect you."
"What do you mean?" you could hear the shaking in my voice.
"I like you. Alot. Jc knew that when he ran into that one day. I had showed him a picture of you and told him that i thought you were gorgeous. But he fell in love with you, and it hurt me. Ive been holding it all in until now. Im so so sorry. You don't deserve to be so scared over my stupid mistake." he let go of my hands and wiped a tear from my face.
"Kian i dont want this all to affect how i feel about Jc. I think i love him, but to be honest i dont know what love feels like. Kian, you and I are just friends..for right now. Okay? Im sorry."
"No i get it, its okay. Ill get over it all, but i do want you to go make Jc feel better. He means so much to me. I hate seeing him hurt from my mistakes."
"How? I dont know where he is or what he's doing." i ask
"He's on the top of the hiking hill he took you to when you guys first met. He's filming." he said surely.
"How are you so sure?" i asked still not convinced.
"Thats where he always goes. Its like his little getaway that no one knows about."
"Okay, i guess. Thank you Kian."
He picked me up over his shoulder and carried me all the way down to his car where he put me in the drivers seat and told me, "Drive to his getaway. Drive to make him happy."
"But its your car.."
"Its okay. Just go." he went inside before i could get another word out.
I drove to where he took me. Then i realized i had to face my fear and hike the huge ass hill in front of me.
