The Need To Love You

Dan

I woke up this morning from a bad dream then went straight to the kitchen to have breakfast. It was 8 am so I didn't want to wake up my friend. I made cereal and because it was cold I light up the fire place. It was so strange to eat without my flat mate but I was hungry as hell. In the apartment was quiet like never before.

- Hey Dan! - No response. I kinda freak out. He wasn't here. Then I called Pj.

- Hello!

- Hi, Phil!

- Have you seen Dan? He is not in the house so I thought you heard him.

- Um.. Phil! Don't you remember?

- What happened?

- Dan is dead.

- No way. He was with me last n - then I remembered. My best friend died because of car crash. I remembered the blood and his last smile before he passed out.

- I am sorry, Phil.

- No, don't be

- I will try to come later.

- Okay. - When I hung out I went to Dan's room. It was empty. Everything was in place like never before. My heart hurt. That was the bad dream from what I wake up this morning. It was so hard for me to hold the tears. The computer was still on. He was editing "Phil is not on fire". After seeing this I couldn't resist. I went to his bed, lay on it and stared crying like small boy. I've missed his funeral all because I was scared to see him in the coffin. Pale than me.

I stayed at that position in about an hour then I went to our place. My whole world was ruined.

- Phil? Are you home? - That was Pj.

- It's unlocked. - Then he come in with Chris and Louise.

- How are you? - Chris asked.

- Fine. - I said.

- It was a surprise for me to. - They stayed with me till 9 pm.

- Guys, I am fine. - I lied to them.

- Can we help you with something? - Louise asked.

- No. I will have dinner and then go to bed. If you want come tomorrow?

- Okay. Bye - they said together and left me. Actually when they left the only thing I did was to replay all of his and our videos. There were so many videos about his death. My mind just replaced the catastrophe but was about time to get back to the real world. All this two days I was imagining that Dan was still alive. All of our Fantastic Foursome, all of Pinof. With the corner of my eye I saw an opened disk. When I picked it my eyes got wet again. The open disk was our Tatinof documentary from 2016. I played it. The whole time I was crying. The moments we had together, even though everyone was shipping us we accept it and we were always smiling. ''What I am going to from now on?'' I asked myself.

While laying on bed trying to fall asleep an idea come to my mind. I went again to Dan's room, open the computer, continue editing the video and then I upload it to Dan's channel. In the caption I wrote "One last thanks to my biggest fanboy. You were such a great fella to me. Thnks fr th Mmrs." Because Dan was my Phil Trash № 1 and I was his small bean.......

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