The Need To Love You

Phil

   I don t quite remember what happened after the crash. It was sad that the second boy in the car died, the strange was that he looked exactly like me. For some reason I get lost in the woods and about a day I tried to find my way back to London even after I heard the sirens of the ambulance and police I kept walking through it. My hand hurts. Maybe I broke it but that doesn't mattered because my mission was to find my way to Phil.

After a two days wondering around the wood I finally managed to find a little house. I knock on the door.

- Hello! Is somebody there?

- Who is it? – A lady voice come out of the outside of the house.

- Um... Can I stay for this night? – The old lady opened the door. She looked like somebody's grandmother.

- Only for one night?

- Yes.

- Okay. I don't want any troubles.

- Thank you miss...

- Daisy.

- Nice to meet you. I am Dan Howell.

- Oh. My grandchild loves your videos. He is a big fan of yours. I think he will be back from school soon.

- That is cute. I love to meet my fans. It's always nice to know that they are real people.

I had a great time with Daisy. She was so nice and kind. We had a long talk on a cup of tea. She cleaned the injuries and put some bondage.

- Hey, granny! Can you open, please? I forgot my keys.

- That should be him. – She went to open the door.

- How as your first day at school, Jack?

- It was great. Missis Chase was really nice with us and I met many new friends.

- We have a special quest today.

- Really! Who?

- Someone you really love. – Then they come to the room where I was. The boy looked around twelve years old with black hair and blue eyes, just like Phil. Jack's happy face was replaced with confusion.

- Hi! – I said. – I heard that you are one of my subscribers. Nice to meet you.

- And you are supposed to be dead.

- What?

- Yes. I will show you. – Jack left the room and came again with computer in his hands. – Look.

Many articles that he showed me were about the catastrophe and how I was death and already buried.

- What about Phil. He is possible out of his place. I should really head back to London as soon as possible.

- If you want you can come with me tomorrow.

- If it's not a problem.

- I hope it's not.

- Thank you.

- You can say that you came from the death. – Daisy said to me and winked.

- It will be a great joke...

We had diner and I told Jack some good editing tips. That kid had the potential of a future youtuber.

I stayed at the quest room and because of the low connection when I log into the Wi-Fi my phone blew of notification. I entered into my channel and saw Pinof." Poor Phil he is lost now. I will be home soon.'' I thought.

On the morning Jack told me that we are going to the town by his school bus. I got ready and for no time we were on the way for London. The driver left me near the center so I can find my house. I took a taxi. In about ten minutes I was in front of the apartment. I took a deep breath and ring on the doorbell. For a second I thought that he's been move out from here but then there were footsteps coming to the door.

- How can I help you? – PJ opened and looked at me with shock.

- Can I come in? – I asked. He was speechless and only nodded with his head and let me through. I went to the lounge where Phil was curled into ball and was crying. My heart broke from that picture.

- Who was it? – He asked weakly.

- I am back home. – I said. Then he turned towards me and looked me from top to bottom. Phil stood up and came close – Who told you I was going to leave you? – Without words he hugged me so tight and I felt his pain. Then I started crying with him and with us Pj cried too.

- Where were you? – Phil asked.

- In the woods.

- But I saw you. You were there.

- That was a boy in the car that looked like me. I fall into a forest and get lost for these days but then I found a house and the people helped me to come here....

- I will leave you. - Pj said after an hour of talking. – See you tomorrow.

- What now? – Phil asked.

- How about watch a movie?

- Tomorrow?

- Okay. – The sleep got us and we get separated. Everyone in their bedrooms. It was good to be back again. My room was quite distant to me. I needed something but because of the last sleepless days when I put my head on the pillow my eyes closed like the speed of light.

Around 3 am my brain decided to shut on. I was missing something. After twenty minutes of fail attempts to sleep I decided to go to Phil's room. Just needed some warmth.

- Phil? – I whispered on his bedroom door.

- What? – He said sleepily.

- Can I enter? I can't sleep.

- Come in.

Without waiting I entered his room and I get into his bed. He hugged me and again started crying. I light up the lamp.

- What's wrong?

- You are alive.

- Yes I am.

- Please don't do that again. I am lost without you, Dan.

- Me too. – I said as I was putting my head on his chest. I heard his heartbeat. It was calm. That wasn't enough. My brain was like ''Do it''. So I did it. Without warning I looked at Phil's calm face and then kissed him on the lips. He didn't push me away. My stomach was filled with butterflies. When we finish I saw the sparkle in his eyes. I smiled. He hugged me thither to be closer to him and in that moment I felt so small. Without any words we felt asleep in this position without admitting that it's a lot better when we were together.