The Need To Love You

The Truth

 On the next morning my brain was replaying the last night's scene. I actually woke up before Dan and had the opportunity to watch him sleep. At first it was strange that he was with me on the same bed. After an hour and nearly one bucket of Dan's drools he opened his eyes.

- Good morning, sleepy head! – I said.

- Good morning. – He mumbled.

- I will go and make some pancakes. What you want? Tea or Coffee?

- Tea.

- I will be back in minute and if you listen to me, better go and have a shower.

- Thanks, mom. – I laugh and went to the kitchen.

Dan had a fast shower and he come to me with hobbit hair. Just how I liked it.

- Are the pancakes ready?

- Not so fast. Here is your tea.

- Thanks Phil.

- What are you going to do?

- About what?

- That you are alive and not you know...

- I will tease the fans some more.

I made the pancakes and we moved to eat them watching some anime episodes. I couldn't focus during the breakfast. My thoughts were of the kiss last night or was just me imagining it. Dan was acting so normal like nothing happened.

After the start of the morning we went to our gaming room to film some videos.

- Can I just... – I tried to reach the pencil and leaned over Dan.

- What are you doing?

- I need the pencil to write the answers. – We tried to beat "The Impossible Quiz".

- You should ask me and I will pass it for.

- No you keep playing. – I had the pen and while returning to my seat we made an eye contact and I was so close to kiss him but then remembered we were filming this. My face turned red. So I sat awkwardly on my chair.

After long hour of stupid quizzes we finally beat the game and in my happy adrenaline I kissed Dan. What surprised me more was that he responded to my kiss and even pull me close to him. Because of that action we felt of the chair. Dan was laughing. Me too. But then he became red and stood up to stop recording.

- I am sorry for that. I guess it was too much. – I apologize to him.

- For what? I though you don't remember what I did last night. – Dan said and looked down his feet.

- I thought that was just my mind messing with the reality. – He sat on the couch.

- I really like you Phil...No I love you.

- What can I say? My feelings are the same.

- Really?

- If I was lying I wasn't going to kiss you now.

- I hide my feelings for so long and last night I just couldn't resist and kissed you.

- As I said it was the same with me, Dan.

- So? Now what?

- I don't know...Maybe record our outro and then delete the scene.

- Okay – He said and smiled. How cute he was with his dimples.

After recording without any words about what happened we started editing the video. It felt so strange but also so magical. We linked our hand during the editing. There was no way to upload this video.

- We can't.

- I know.

- And everyone think that you are dead and now to bring this to our gaming channel.

- Okay I will make a quick live show to tell everyone the truth.

I tweeted and started the Younow.

- Hey guys! – I said. – You know who is back from the death.

- Hello! – Dan showed to the webcam and with that action he literally broke the site. We tried again.

The long hour was too hard for me. We were so close to each other and in some point we were holding hands because of the struggle not to do anything that will show everyone what we have been going.

- O Wow! Nine o'clock already. Boy, time flies fast. Well I hope you will like our gaming video. Phil will try to upload it this night. Stay tuned.

- And don't get lost in the woods or everyone will take you for death.

- Great advice, Phil!

- Thanks.

- Bye. – We said together and stop the webcam.

- Well now I am official alive and you can do whatever you like. – He said.

- I will go and make dinner. – I said and kissed him on the forehead.

I went to the kitchen followed by Dan. I put the pasta to boil. While standing over the pot I felt a warm breath around my neck. Dan put his hands around my waist and his head over my left shoulder. It was so comfortable this way. He kissed me on the cheeks.

- Dinner is ready.

- I am good without dinner. Let's stay in this position for a while. – I didn't hesitate to that idea. We started moving around in little dance and after a while we went to the lounge and had dinner. The night was too perfect. The video was uploaded for five minutes and we were ready to go to sleep.

When Dan was about to enter his room I asked him:

- You want to come to my room?

- Fine. If you ask? – He giggled.

I put my pajamas and lay next to Dan.

- Stay with your hobbit hair more often.

- Wait I filmed the gaming video with that hair. – I nodded and laugh. – O well I will try to not be distracted next time and straight it.

- I distract you?

- Yes. – Then both explode to hysterically laugh.

- You know what?

- What?

- Nothing I am tired and I will fall asleep.

- I want you to know that I love you Dan Howell and I will do anything to make you happy. – I didn't get response so I hugged him.

- I love you too, Phil Lester. – He said after a while and kissed me again. – And you made me already the happiest man on Earth. – After that I felt asleep resting my head over his chest under the sound of his heartbeat. Dan put his hand into my hair and played with it until he fell asleep.