Teenage Lies (Dan Howell X Teenage Reader)

The Arrival

*YOUR P.O.V*

Today is Friday, and he is back.. 2 years ago to this day, I met HIM. we have spoken since the London incedent, but today, Dan and Phil are coming back to Australia.

"Now personal note, Phil is coming to see Charlotte his girlfriend, and Dan is coming to see me. Me. Me of all people he wanted to see me." "y/n who are you talking to and what do you mean someone other than Dan is dating Phil?" yelled y/bf/n.

I did it again.. I've cascaded into the spiral of utter insanity.. "oh sorry I forgot you were there.. I was just talking to myself.. Again." I said chirply. "I'll speak to you sometime over the holidays yeah?" I asked "of course we will" y/bf/n said.

*Le Time Skip Of 6 Hours (so it's now 9:30pm) Brought to you by your shadow*

I feel my eyelids droop after the day I've had and all the excitement of seeing Dan again. Normally my family are to overprotective and wouldn't let me do this but because of the London incedent, they felt that they owed Dan for what he did to help me.

I'm sitting in my dark room once more, waiting for the day I'll be free to love him, and he loves me. I zoned out yelling at myself for being such a fool, scolding myself in silence.

"y/n you do know that he will NEVER love you"

"why do you do this huh? is it because your last relationship flopped?"

"you know what, I hope he never speaks- no- wait.. even looks or thinks about you again because you are too pathetic to ever be with HIM"

constantly tortured, constant zoning out, constant flashback and of course, constant trauma.

"Y/N!! Y/N!! HEY ARE YOU OKAY!?!? Y/N ANSWER ME!!" Dan Yelled whilst violently shaking me.. "D-Dan-Kun y-you're here!" I exclaimed through a whisper. "Yes I am, but are you okay? you were muttering something about your last relationship." Dan looked concerned, legitimatly concerned, "y/n please tell me what's wrong, does it have something to do with London?" Dan's face was filled with fear as I wasn't answering him.

Quickly I jumped into his arms, holding him close to me, "I'm sorry I made you worry Dan-Kun, I just missed you, and still have flashback tbh" I smiled.

*Dan's P.O.V*

y/n wasn't answering me, was she okay? was she hurt? I want to make her feel safe and protect her but I'm not as sure how. She glanced up at me before grabbing me tightly. It felt good to feel her warm body heat and to see her always damaged hands from her cat (sorry if you are allergic or hate cats.. just say that you have a puppy then), she'd grown but something was wrong.. "I'm sorry I made you worry Dan-Kun, I just missed you, and still have flashbacks tbh" she smiled.

I don't understand, what does London have to do with her relationships? It may not matter right now, as long as she's okay, I will put on a smile. "Okay then, well do you want to play some Mario Kart?" I asked, knowing that it makes her feel better "Oh It's on Dan-Kun!" she giggled.

She keeps calling me Dan-Kun though.. what happened to her? It was, and has always been just [Dan] or 'Daniel' if she was really tired or wanted something from me..

I walked into the living room and sat down next to her. she was always trying to make me happy, so now it's my turn to do the same.