"Has anything ever filled you?.... You know emotionally. Ever made you so happy that you feel like youre dreaming and it makes you smile whenever you think about it? It makes you love yourself and feel accomplished of what you've done, because that part of you is the only part you love. Wether it be art, a religion, work or... a person. If so, was it ever taken away from you? Where you cry and cry. Heavy sobs.... Loss of breath. Your heart starts pounding and you think your dieing and you actually are. Emotionally your world is ending and being terribly damaged and the only thing you can do is pray to feel better. Has that ever happened to you?"
Its been 3 months and i still think about you. I don't want to. Its a horrible thing to think of but its just a break up. Just a break up. I cant get out of bed. I cant stop crying. I just want you. I see you and her and i think about us. And how happy you made me and the times you and i shared. Im depressed. Im angry... Im hurt. Im suicidal. I need you and i know can't have you and it fucking breaks me. I know you're as happy as can be with her and i know im a bad person for wishing you wernt. I wanna be happy. I pretend i am but i can't fucking get over you. Ill bring each day along with a struggle until i kill myself or put my trust in someone who doesn't deserve it and the process starts again.
My world has left me and I'm missing it terribly. How did you leave me so easily? How did i let you leave so easily? How come i cant fucking get over you? How come i cant fucking be happy? Its just a break up. Ill repeat the words in my head until i believe it eventually. You dont deserve as much credit as im giving you for making me suicidal. Our relationship was a mistake but i cant get over it.
I cant get over you
