A Collection of Thoughts

How Can This Be?

How can this be?

This growing feeling inside.

Have you always been this way? With that laughter that has become my favorite sound?

With your eyes that are so honest and bright, taking in everything you see, and shining when they turn to look at me?

Why do you stare but look away when I see? You stare as I do my make up or do meaningless tasks, and when I glance at you I see that smirk you have. A smirk that says something I just can not put my finger on. 

You are being stranger than usual, or maybe it is me.

Am I falling for you? No, impossible, you would never see a regular girl like me in a romantic light at all. We are friends and that's all. I am not your usual type and I never will be. I must have mistaken every glance and smirk. 

How can this be? Can't she see? The way she is to me?

This feeling inside of me. I feel like I have found home. I want to hold only her when the world is crumbling down. She brings me peace like I have never known before. 

She's so sweet and patient with me. No matter what she is going through she is selfless enough to make sure I am doing okay first. She never wants to talk about her self, not because she dislikes herself, but because she genuinely wants to make sure that those she cares for are doing the best they can.

Has she always been this way? Even when she is just cleaning up the kitchen I can't help but think, "Look at her move, she's tender and so caring with even the simplest movements."

She looks beautiful, in anything at all, that I have to look away. Someone like her would never see me in a romantic way. She is so above me that I could not reach her even if I climbed every building and rode every airplane. She deserves to be cherished and never taken for granted. I just wish I could be closer to her level, but I am not even worth her time. 

I'm falling to hard for her and she deserves so much better than me.

-n.J.w