No matter what I write
Behind the screen of doubts
A mental prison of night
Obscured by the formidable shouts
Only audible to the human mind
It resonates against the walls of my skull
Searching, but yet I cannot find
The core of such a troubled soul
The bitterness of potential failure
Reckoned as a chance of luck
Blaming it on the course of nature
Is not good enough to say: "who gives a fuck"
For a warrior is hardened by self-discipline
From failure, success, strength, and weakness
Built on the integrity and endurance within
Betrayed by reality, deception and secrets
The soldier who bears a heavy heart
Smiling, he feigns the impression
But ponders the day of his final depart
He is released from emotional oppression
Freed from internal confinement
Perhaps he has seen the light
Abandoning his worldly assignment
Out of the darkness he rises from his plight
However, giving up is not an option for me
Compelled by drive and perseverance
Fighting to reach the highest degree
Before my disappearance
Sometimes it is just too much
And I want to let it all go.
But it is the fire within to which I clutch
And the future that I do not know
That push me beyond the limits
Forcing me to overcome such strife
But this I have learned doesn't happen in minutes
To accept the hardships of life
Fate has no sympathy on mankind
This is indeed an endless fight
But those who choose a life so blind
Will never recognize a matter's right
That anything requires strenuous labor
Nothing is easy; many times I will fall
So I can lock myself in a mental chamber
Or break out of this psychological wall
A lot daring and yet operose feat
Achieved by man's potency
A fence made of the thickest concrete
Is broken down by the knowledge of this sleight
So be scared, be scared as hell
I tell myself, as I break out of my shell
Although these moments are ripe with fear
On test day, I know my job is clear
