Loving Mr. Styles (One Direction(Harry) Fanfic).

Chapter 4

Everything had happened so quickly but being in Harry's arms felt so right. We had agreed to keep the relationship a secret until we felt right together. To be honest I feel quite excited about what's ahead, and how our relationship will grow! I think it's better that we were best friends before.

Harry spent the night at mine and it was great that we could be totally relaxed together. Every time I kiss him fireworks go through me, his lips are so soft, he really is perfect.

-Harry-

Something didn't feel right. The first time we kissed it felt good. Different. But now I just don't feel anything I don't know what it is. I don't want to hurt Grace by saying anything and I can't afford to lose her as a friend, we've been through far too much together.

• FLASHBACK •

-Harry-

My phone buzzed, as soon as I saw the text my heart dropped:

'Harry help me I can't cope.'

I ran out my house and along the lane straight to Grace's, I burst through the door not even knocking. I slowed down as I approached Grace's room I could hear my heart thumping. I walked into her room as she was sitting there with a knife in her hand.

'What are you doing!' I whispered.

'I hate my life.' Grace broke down falling into my arms. 'I have nobody, everyone hates me, even my family.'

'you've got me and your brother he needs you as much as you need him.'

'He doesn't get bullied every day, he doesn't get pushed around.' She cried.

'I know, but he also lost his mum. Life will get better. This has just been a horrible year, I hate seeing you like this, I hate seeing you getting hurt mentally and physically. Look at your arms. What does that show?'

'The pain helps me. I feel like mum's crash was all my fault the argument we had before she left I said awful things.'

'Don't blame yourself you told her you loved her everyday just one day there was an idiot on the road, it's their fault. And the pain from cutting can't help. Please always come to me first. I love you Grace, I will always be here. Please don't cut.' I had tears in my eyes I hate seeing someone so close to you feeling so so bad!

'I try my best. But i feel like councillors and psychiatrists don't help. Do you think I like these marks on my arms?'

'You need to be honest with people you need to tell them how you really feel. I will come with you to appointments if you want? Please just promise to come to me. Don't choose the knife. Promise me.' I stared into Grace's eyes. I felt her pain.

'I promise.' She cried again burrowing her face into my neck.

•End Of Flashback•

That was such a hard day. The reason why I can't ruin our friendship she can't lose anyone else. She's close to her brother and aunt. But since Grace's dad married someone else he has become horrible and has blamed Grace a few times for her mums accident. I love Grace but I just don't feel anything when we kiss.

I just don't know what to do. But for now I'll have to go along with it.

-Grace-

'Hey honey, you took your time in the shower!' I smiled poking harry in the chest.

'I was thinking about things.' Harry said smiling softly.

'Are you okay?'

'Yeah. Going over how much I miss home, might need to take a trip to Cheshire soon. Fancy coming?' He asked.

'Sounds good! I've not been home in so long and I've got a baby step sister to visit even if I'm not that close she still has half my blood! And it's Joey's birthday next week.' I smiled.

'Next week it is then! Anyway I'm starving fancy a pizza?'

'Pizza it is!' I laughed kissing harry lightly on the cheek. 'Ooh and what about desert??' I said stroking Harry's arm teasingly.

'I'll have a Grace Willerton' he smiled

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(A/N)

Sorry this chapter isn't great! Anyway I haven't updated in a few days because I've been writing this chapter and then there was a power cut so it didn't save! Gahhh! Anyway please leave a comment or something as I love reading them :D x