Loving Mr. Styles (One Direction(Harry) Fanfic).

Chapter 16

I really couldn't be bothered driving to Harry's. I was so tired from the flight and the start of jet lag but Harry needs help right now and I promised his mum I would give him it.

I pulled on a dressing gown, grabbed my car keys and headed for Harry's.

I was always jealous of his house, it was big, modern and minimalistic. I typed the code for his electric gate to open and drove in.

I knocked on Harry's door waiting a while before an answer.

"Thank god you're here." Harry said engulfing me in a hug.

"What's up?" I asked.

"I'm scared, the voices won't stop screaming at me and hurting me."

"What were they saying?"

"I can't tell you."

"Well if you're not going to tell me anything can I go to sleep?" I tried laughing to make Harry smile.

"You can sleep, I'll try." Harry said locking the front door and then walking around the house making sure everything was secure. I noticed as Harry reached to switch a plug off that he had scratches all over his arms again.

I grabbed his hand "why do you scratch so much? You'll make yourself bleed."

"It's a habit, when I get scared I'll scratch. It's my way of coping." He said looking at his arms.

"Let's go to bed, you might be used to the jet lag but I'm not."

I figured I'd had about forty minutes sleep before I was disturbed by the fidgeting of Harry. He was moving a chest of drawers in front of his bedroom door. "What are you doing?" I whispered, still half a sleep.

"Trying to keep them out."

"They're a part of your imagination, stop thinking and they'll disappear."

"They are not. They're real." He snapped back at me. "Maybe you should leave. The voices are getting angry at your nosiness." I shook my head shocked at what Harry was asking me to do.

"Let me get this right, you told me to come over here because the voices were here and now as soon as I get here you want me to leave."

"Yes."

"Are you being serious!" I tried to keep my voice calm but I was honestly so tired I could snap any minute.

"Does it sound like I'm joking? Please just go, i'll call you tomorrow." He moved the drawers away from the door ushering me out of my bed, down the stairs and to the front door.

"You know what Harry don't bother phoning me." I walked over to my car and slammed the door shut. I was so glad It was only a ten minute drive home because my eyes were becoming so heavy. It was now two in the morning.

When my head touched the pillow this time I instantly fell asleep.

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I stretched my whole body out on the bed, I opened my eyes to the sun glaring down on me. Checking my watch I received such a fright as it was two in the afternoon. This must be the longest I've ever slept in! I reached for my phone and had a scroll through Facebook stopping at a picture of Chloe and some guy, I read the status to go with it 'honestly have the best bf in the world, woke up to fresh flowers and a lovely breakfast this morning.' So it was a 'new' boyfriend. I missed Chloe, normally I would be in touch every few days but since Harry cheated on me I haven't been in touch. I know it wasn't her fault and I would love to spend a day to catch up but I'd just feel awkward.

My phone vibrated in my hand making it fall, crashing on to my face. Ouch!

It was a message from Harry 'Missing you... Hx'   I decided to have a couple of days to myself, his problems were getting a bit much for me especially with jet lag. I also had to figure out how I was meant to pay my rent this month and have enough money left for food and other necessities.

Even with my job - that I have no longer - I struggled to pay my rent each month so I had to have a miracle happen so I could still live indoors.

I decided to try child-minding as I had just earned my basic childcare qualification, besides surely it can't be that difficult! I figured I could look after kids Thursday to Sunday as I only had uni Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. If I looked after two kids a day for 4-6 hours on £10 an hour I would earn about £160 a week. It still wasn't enough each month though.

I was going to have to share my apartment with someone else.

All the thinking hurt my brain. So I advertised on Facebook and replied to Harry: 'Just needed a couple of days to myself. Will come round at some point, promise xx'  

I showered, dried my hair which today had a little wave in it, pulled on a black and white stripe dress with tights, black pumps and a long red winter coat. I was going for a walk.

There weren't any country paths in the middle of London so I went for a walk around the park. The trees were so bare and the river was icing up at the edges. It was definitely Winter.

People were giving me funny looks and that's when I realised I'd forgotten to cover my bruise up. Because it was healing it was going really dark purple right now so it was even more noticeable. I guess I could say I walked into a door - classic.

Just as I thought things couldn't get worse Chloe 'bumped' into me with her new boyfriend. "Grace, I haven't seen you in ages."

"Hey Chloe, are you going to introduce me?"

"Oh, of course this is Rob, Rob this is Grace that friend I told you about." She said in her high pitched tone. Of course I was 'that friend'. Something really bugged me about her today.

"It was nice meeting you, I'll leave you two girls to talk, I'm off to work." Rob said kissing Chloe before running off, I must admit he was quite hot.

"What's up with your lip?" Chloe said staring.

"Walked into a door classic, clumsy me." I laughed. "You haven't told anyone about you and Harry have you?" I questioned.

"No, of course not. I couldn't face all the drama." She said flicking her hair. "Anyway, how is he?"

"He's good, just having a little break before the wave of interviews, photo shoots and album recording comes along. When did you receive the letter about work?" I asked taking a seat on the bench next to us.

"Day after Christmas, you would have thought they could've waited a few more days. Luckily Rob offered me a job as receptionist for his modelling company, have you found anything yet?" She smiled.

"I thought I could take up babysitting. It's just difficult because I have to focus at uni."

"Yeah, It's okay because mine are night classes... oh my god Grace I've had the BEST idea!" She squealed.

"What's your amazing idea this time?" I moaned.

"Rob is looking for new models. Grace you are beautiful your hair is long and perfect, your cheekbones stand out, your slim, perfect!" She said pointing at my features.

"You mean a skinny girl with no boobs, and the ugliest face? There's no way I could make it as a model." I rolled my eyes.

"Grace, you have boobs anyway there's always implants and you have a gorgeous face, sparkling eyes and full lips. Please let me ask Rob to do a photo shoot for you. Please!" She grabbed my hands squeezing them.

"I guess one stupid photo shoot wouldn't hurt. Anyway it's cold I'm heading home."

Chloe almost burst in my face, I don't know what made her so excited.